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As many of you are aware, I have a tattoo of  ‘The Mark ‘ on my right wrist that I got when Jewel Torres came to visit me in Phoenix, in Jan 2018. Having both spent far too much time in the church, we loved the delicious irony of the name of our tattoos, as well as the placement. (The Mark on our Wrists) We loved that we got them, but we were certain our artist was fresh out of school, given the obvious imperfections in his work. But we loved them, and we loved getting them done; together.

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Mine

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Side by Side

Over time, mine showed signs of micro scarring, (blank spots where the ink did not take properly), which was not nearly as bothersome to me, as the iris being off center. The two things combined, really bugged me. So today, I decided to do something about it, and went into a tattoo shop by my house to inquire about having it fixed.

Having found myself feeling extremely confident in the artist I consulted with, I sat down on the spot -to let Issac make the adjustments we spoke about. In the course of our conversation, trigger words and mantras, like integrity, critical thinking, don’t ever give up, keep going no matter what, flew between us as naturally as if they had been divinely scripted.

Eventually of course, the conversation turned to The Illuminati, due to the symbolism of The Mark itself.  We were shocked to discover that he had only a few days before, downloaded a copy of The Eternal Oath he hadn’t signed yet!  Although I bet he will tonight, Lol I mean… what are the freak odds Issac!?

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Anyway, I was able to share more information about the outreach, and tell him about my book, and he in turn shared a brief version of his life from prison to his present understanding. I was so excited, because I know IAM digs it when folks crawl out of the ditch, and climb over their dominos! I knew they would want to watch This guy closer!

It was all very surreal to meet a brother out of nowhere, and being able to invite him to join us; personally. He is everything IAM looks for in a human, and it was amazing watching his eyes Light up, as he became more animated in  sharing his journey with me. There was no doubt for either of us, I was there by “appointment”, even though I was a walk in!

I am really just so blown away, I am having a hard time articulating myself. But it sure makes sense now, why I was drawn to this particular shop! I always glanced towards it on my way home.

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As you can see, he did an incredible job of reviving my Mark. I freaking love how he not only fixed it, but made it FABULOUS! He even used some white outlining, to make it pOp! This is it under the protective coating designed to aid healing.  I will add more images to this little shout out, once it heals and I get back over there to grab a photo of us together. Suffice to say, it was an incredible experiences getting my tat rehabbed today~

Here are Issac’s deets, if you happen to live in the Phoenix Metro area~

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I am often asked what someone should do while they wait to learn the results of their prerequisites. I hate having to answer this question, because it shows right away they have not read ILLUMINATIAM, The First Testament of the Illuminati. Something I just cannot fathom, if you have chosen this path.

For the life of me, I cannot understand why someone would follow an organization or ideology, and not actually read everything they have published about it, to date. It is akin to claiming to be a Christian, and never reading the Bible. It is not only lazy, it demonstrates to me immediately that person prefers their ignorance, and is currently not a leader. You guys need to understand that leaders do not beg for the crumbs of others, only sheep do that. Lions such as myself, hunt down their own food, and thrive because we are well fed by our own efforts. If you think The Illuminati is unaware of your choice to remain ignorant, you are sadly mistaken. They are looking for leaders, not the lazy.

To put this in a way that most of you will understand, I have learned everything I know through The Illuminati’s publicly released messages. At this time, I do not have have access to anything different that anyone else does. So I find it unsettling that so many claim they want to be a part of this organization, and yet know zero about it. Even though they can find everything they need to know, online. Even their book can be purchased for only .99 cents in digital form on Amazon. 

The Illuminati has made everything easily accessible for all. For me, there are no excuses for not doing the necessary research to learn more, unless you are living in a country who has blocked every link IAM has. And even if this is the case, you all seem to have access to Facebook, and there are a myriad of groups there that are geared towards helping those with access issues. Never mind my online radio station, that has literally everything ever printed by the IAM, in audio form there.

If you want to know what I personally think you should do while you wait on IAM, beyond what has been shared by them in their book, here it is:

SEEK

STUDY

SHARE

& SERVE

 

Link to The Illuminati online

Link to iMARK Radio

 

 

Invited to Rank?

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I never really gave it much thought.

Not serious thought anyway.

I don’t believe for a minute I would ever be invited to rank. Surely that is an honor reserved for the best and brightest on this planet. Unlike the clamoring masses at the base of IAMs pyramid, I do not see myself on par with whoever has already made it into this exclusive club. Since I do not see myself as one of them, I really haven’t given the possibility, any real thought. So yeah, I really did not let my mind go there. I mean, why would I?

 I recently turned 58. It took me 2 years and 8 months to reach Level 1.1. If there were only 3 Levels, with 3 sub levels, it would still take approx 27 years, before I would get though all the Citizen Member Initiate Levels!  In other words, I would be 78 years old. Hardly a probable option for a group who was rumored to have once said, they didn’t trust anyone over 30!

Be all that as it may,  a brother-friend recently asked me, what I would say to The Illuminati, if they were to ask me to join their ranks. Let me tell ya. I ignored him the first time he asked. But he asked again. And even though I did not answer him the second time either, it really got me thinking. I needed an answer to that question for myself. Just in case. Given that I have been pissy-pot-pie, spitting nails mad and considering a break-up with IAM for about 6 months at the time he asked,  it really kinda jerked me up short and caused me to do some SERIOUS soul searching. Could I be obediently “lifetime-loyal” to a group I have no full understanding of, and who’s ways have flat out pissed me off at times? I certainly have been loyal to lesser men. HA! Plus, I managed to remained loyal, even in anger, so MAYBE? I mean, I don’t know??!! These guys know EVERYTHING about me and I know ZIP about them! Talk about an uneven playing field. 

But we ain’t playin’.

And this is NO game, is it…?

The more I thought about, the more consequential this question became for me.

What would I do?

No really…

What will you do V?!

Since I do not anticipate being asked, I was finding it hard to even image. I had to sit with it for several days, before I came close to anything resembling an answer. It honestly took awhile to get my head in that game enough to visualize someone coming to my door with an invitation, or whatever they do. I am not sure if that is what they do, but a call would seem distant and surreal, so in my mind they would have to show their faces for me to believe it was real. I truly could not imagine any of that.

I grappled with bringing such an fantasy to life. So much so, I was reminded about how stagnant my line of thinking had become, prior to having met IAM. I literally had zero vision for my future at the time. If someone had said I had won $10,000 to plan the vacation of a lifetime, I would not have any idea what-so-ever where to go. I could not even dream about taking a luxurious vacation much less imagine myself as someone the mysterious, and merited Illuminati would find any value in.

However, I needed to know what I would choose in advance; just in case.

The first thing that occurred to me when considering the possibility was… Do I trust these faceless, unknown strangers enough, to sign an eternally binding oath of obedience? An oath I could never renounce.  A forever and ever AMEN, Oath?!!

Let’s face it, that trumps marital vows exponentially. Now I don’t know about you dear Beacons, but trust is a pivotal aspect of any relationship in my world. Signing a lifelong oath of loyalty, is akin to getting married only more binding, by far. Needless to say, there is no way I could take this question as lightly as I did my choices in marriage. I was really struggling to find a way to say YES to folks I know little to nothing about. At the time, a enthusiastic ‘yes’ would just not come in for a landing. Trust me when I say there is another draft of this article that has an entirely different ending, and it was written first.

It just doesn’t seem prudent to consider jumping into bed with people I do not know. And yet, there is a kind of ‘knowing’ I have with these guys which I cannot necessarily articulate. I ‘knew’ their voice the minute they called, so can I really say they are strangers to me? Not really. No. There is a familiarity I cannot explain, but exists none the less. There really was a knowing inside of me, to balance out the unknown, which at the end of the day actually provided the answer I sought. I went with my gut, because there isn’t enough data to go full on logical.

When I try to imagine who The Illuminati might be in real life, I think of those that are listed in the Billionaire Giving Pledge (see http://www.givingpledge.org) After all, mention of these remarkable humans come under the heading of “About Us” on IAMs official site. Surely there are those who have taken the pledge that are truly Illuminati? If you take the time to read their individual responses to Bill and Melinda Gate’s invitation to participate, you might get the same goosebumps as I do. These folks are FANTASTIC! Far more fabulous that I for sure. That level of giving definitely says Humanitarian, for sure!!

That is my measure.

THEM.

To be clear, it’s already my great pleasure to support The Illuminati as is. EVEN if I am not deemed fit to dine at their tables. I will enthusiastically serve them, regardless! I do not expect these brilliant humans, would care to dine with the likes of me. I know I am an acquired taste even if I am a ‘nobody’, in every sense of the word. I cannot imagine the elite of this planet needing anything from a mouthy, spiritually driven, emotive gal, such as myself. Plus I am not sure I am intelligent enough, although I do believe I possess the level of integrity the seek. Although I would add a considerable amount of color and perhaps a little comedy to the group -that you can be sure of!

But back to the question at hand, what would I actually say, if I was approached to join the ranks of the Lights most elite, intelligent, and philanthropic humans on the planet? Truthfully, I would likely CRY like a little girl first! Or be too flabbergasted to even speak. Once the initial shock wore off though, I would respond by saying I have a few questions first. Then I would probably need to sleep on it.

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I couldn’t sleep!!

I think I would just need some time with it, alone. This of course, is assuming they did not already anticipate my questions and/or concerns, and alleviate them from word go. Although I am completely content and fulfilled to be a Community Leader in their public outreach, it would absolutely be an honor to serve them more deeply, in anyway they need me to. For as long as they deem me worthy, to do so.

So, all that being said, and assuming of course, you guys are not the Archons…

My reply would be a diamond hard MAYBE IAM!

(Wink)

 

What would your answer be dear Beacons? I would LOVE to hear what you are thinking! Please be advised, your answers could end up in my next book~

I’ve been really sick.

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I was really sick & tired for about 6 months.

 

When I quit smoking, it sent me straight to Hell and into Hypothyroidism that went unchecked for 3 months. As a result, I gained 5 pounds a week for 8 weeks in a row, pouring a swift and staggering 40lbs onto my petite frame. Far more than the standard 10 lbs one can expect, from the slow down to the system that smoking cessation typically creates. It was the freaking WORST!!

I was miserable!

And I do mean MISERABLE, in every possible way!!

Not only did I suffer the worst that Hypothyroidism could throw at me: Puffy face, extreme fatigue, hoarseness, muscle weakness, heart palpitations, shortness of breath, zero concentration, weight gain, more hair loss, and some bonus depression. I had to deal with the withdrawals from smoking, on top of all that! It threw me into a radical, personal pole shift, no doubt about it. There was so much going on with my body that I had no control over, I was a veritable stranger in my own skin. I hated every other ounce that had found it’s way into every area of my body. I was an emotional shipwreck, washed up onto territory that was completely foreign to me.  I had no idea what to do with myself, besides consult a physician and possibly a psychiatrist. I was all but lost, without my 40 year constant companion, who could always calm me down.

I WAS IN CONSTANT PAIN.

I was afraid that was my new normal.

My body hurt everywhere but especially my legs and my hands. I felt like a balloon that had been blown up too quickly, just shy of the popping point. I felt like I was as full as one could possibly be, without actually exploding. Carrying this new weight HURT! I was too damn tired to carry it, too! It hurt physically like I would never have imagined, but also it hurt me mentally too. It really threw me to the ground in a way nothing had before. I thought, WOW… IAM really found me weak point now, good for them!

I’m SCREWED.

I was not a gal that ever really worried about how she looked, and certainly not my weight, so this was very left field for me. But with the world potentially watching me turn into Violet Beauregarde from Willy Wonka, my pain was magnified by raw embarrassment and the idea that my enemies would actually delight in my suffering. 

I found myself facing all the fears, every human who does not feel perfect, faces. This fear was tangible, and quite the heavy low down. I suddenly felt a monumental heaviness for every overweight person on the planet, who felt they did not measure up to the impossible standards, of a freaking hanger. I developed sympatico for the kind of worries only high profile folks are subject to that I previously had no understanding of.  It is bad enough having to hit a low cycle in your life, it is exponentially more horrific doing so, while god and everyone is watching. I felt for every single one of us, and it made me cry.

A lot.

I am not going to lie, there were times that I wished with all my heart, I would just go to sleep and not wake up, so I could avoid the ongoing humiliation and the colossal amount of work that lay ahead. I absolutely did not want to face what I needed to, to get past this hurdle. I did not want to do this!! I was pissy-pot-pie on pep pills. I was dragging my tail behind me like a 800 lb leash. I was spitting nails angry that I would have to undo, what never should have occurred to begin with -had my doctor been a better advocate for my health. I knew the only way to get through this terrible turn of events, was going to require a whole bunch of effort on my part to fix.  I cannot even describe how pissed off I was about it.  Brad can though. He knows. He was my primary higher witness. He was the one I reached out to for the most part, although Papa and Christine were there for me also.

I called Brad a lot, so he caught the brunt of my furious rage. I called him crying, screaming, ranting, whimpering and too angry to speak. I called him just about every single day for months, working myself into lather almost every time I did.  He witnessed my death throes and I promise you, it wasn’t pretty. I had no way to dial myself down without a cigarette! I was screaming to the moon without a safety harness. I am convinced Brad must have put me on mute to get through the bulk of it. The endless repetition would have driven me crazy, but Brad took it like, he was actually paid to deal with me. No really. That is exactly how I would describe it. He really was a rock, on the other side of my hard place. I was frozen in my angst for months, before I was able to get moving again. My anger had eclipsed everything in my life, and I had become a shadow unto myself. 

The most horrific part of this for me was, dealing with the mirror. The one staring back at me was “Consumption V”, the version of myself who drank far to much to avoid her pain. I buried her almost 11 years ago, and here she was again, bloated and ready to gloat. It was incredibly hard to face her. I did not get sober and quit killing myself slowly, to face HER again!! Her very presence added insult to injury, and damn near pushed me, over the edge of myself. 

I was absolutely distraught.

INCONSOLABLE; REALLY.

Literally everything I knew how to do to move pass this, I ignored. I was obsessively hanging black crepe, in an effort to hide the terrible truth. The terrible truth was, there was no short cut! There was no easy fix. There was no savior on their way to magically fat burn me down and spit me out fabulous! I was ultimately going to have to move all the way through this alone, and it was going to take a tremendous amount of effort on my part, to do so. 

Grrrrrrrr(SPIT)Hisssssssss~

After a couple of professional examinations of my heart, and lungs, I got off my fat arse and started moving. It was my second attempt to do so. I had started with the gym the moment I became a non-smoker, but had to pause until my doc could figure out what was going on with my body. When I first started “Striding” (a combo of running, walking & occasionally some interpretive dance) I was so freaking out of shape, I could barely move myself at all. I felt like I was carrying 600 lbs of cement on top of my 800lb tail. It was such a drag! Quite literally. I was glad I had all the tests for my heart first, because it felt like I was having a heart attack every time I worked it out, for the first couple of weeks. I could not even believe how out of shape I was overall, having not been in a gym for 2 decades. I promise you when I say, there are a couple of smokers in my neighborhood that know I bawled my way through, many of my strides!

I hated every minute of the first several weeks of it.

I did not lose weight.

I GAINED it!

I was the biggest baby you have ever seen, and Brad heard it all. He would do everything he could, to intuitively diagnosis what ailed me, no doubt hoping my angst would end soon. It was he (and my mum) who suggested the thyroid was out of whack, when all my other tests were coming back normal.  I really am grateful to him for his time and efforts! He went to heroics for me, he really did.

But the thing that bothered me the most throughout this entire ordeal, was the fact that I could no longer feel the presence of The Illuminati in my life. I felt fully abandoned by them. I could not feel them in any way, shape, or form, even though it was clear my Initiation was still in progress, throughout it all.  I know, I know…they are always watching. But for me, it seemed they got into their space ships and decided to watch me from Saturn while they turned up the heat.  I thought they no longer cared about me, or how I was feeling. I felt they had pushed me down and left me for dead, even though it was my decision to quit smoking. I had several significant fires going in that same 6 months period of time, and I can honestly say it was (by far) the hardest part of my Initiation process, to date.

The whole time I was losing my shit, I reluctantly and RESENTFULLY moved towards the solution. I committed to exercise 5 days a week and for the most part, I followed through on that, even when I did not want to. Mostly, I did not want to. I was still livid that I even had to. The only reason I was able to show up at all, is because I knew showing up was the only way to get that person screaming at me from the back of my head, to shut the hell up. Besides, I immediately felt better knowing I was moving into a solution, even if I could not see any evidence of it.

At times I put all my heart into it and at others, I showed up halfheartedly. I showed up in the grubbiest fat clothes you can picture, but I showed up! Even when I gained an additional 7 more pounds, and I was in a state of despair as a result, I showed up.  Even when I was crying, I still showed up. I showed up to stride even if I had to take a nap beforehand, to do so.  I showed up when my legs were like painful balloons ready to pop. I showed up and strode through the freaking burning pain and the bloated loss of motion. I showed up with or without the music. With or without my enthusiasm.  And with or without any desire to do so. I hated almost every minute of it for 2 full months, possibly more, but I showed up. 

I freaking showed up!!

While I have yet to reach my goal, which is predicated on how I feel in my skin not how I look, I still feel 1000Xs better than I had before. I am starting to move more fluidly again, and the constant burning has ceased. I do not see “Consumption V” in the mirror anymore, and that alone brings a sign of relief, which has the potential to create hurricanes.

HA!

FEAR NOT!

Without a doubt, this has been one of the most challenging battles of my life. This was on par with fighting your way back from an injury, after an accident for me.  Even though it does not yet show, I can feel HaPPy and Healthy V, being carved out inside of every corner of me.  I know it will not be very much longer, before the outside matches what is happening within. I can tell you right now though, my sense of accomplishment is over the stack right now! It is especially sweet, when you didn’t even want to do the thing, that you have kicked arse, taken names and DONE!!

 

OH!! And it turns out…this exercise stuff is GREAT at diminishing the smack my head likes to talk, and it doesn’t look so bad on my legs either! I’m starting to get excited about this renovated and ravishing V, I just know will emerge; eventually! The one who faced that freaking mountain, and strode all over it, like the Victoryas Princess-Goddess that she truly, and thoroughly  is!

V~

 

 

The whole point of sharing this snippet, is to serve as a reminder for us all that we can face whatever it is, that stares us down. We can stare right back at it, face our fear, and conquer the fork out of whatever we must face.

That is a fact!

We are never given more than we can stand.

Please do NOT lose sight of that EVER, Beacons.

 

When you think you cannot do that thing, you don’t even want to do.

You can.

When you think you can go no farther, on a path you never wanted to take.

You will.

You can and you will.

CONGRATULATIONS!

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There you are Beacons!

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I wanted to get this on the record for you guys, for future reference.

This is my evidence, and why I think The Illuminati cares deeply those, who have been subject to the worst our species can dish out.  I think they are as mortified as I am, by mans inhumanity to man. I believe they have indirectly encouraged me to explore this disturbing topic more thoroughly and have emboldened me, to bring it forward.

I first realized that pedophilia and perversion were on their radar, back in Dec 2016, after a series of tweets I posted on the topic. I was closely following WikiLeaks and Pizzagate at the time. I was attempting to bring some awareness to my followers, most of which, chose to ignore me. Perhaps due to the controversy that was going on at the time concerning the validity of the information that was coming forward. No judgement, it was a painful time for a lot of us who were willing to gaze into the abyss.

I was convinced there was something to all of this and looked deeply enough to convince myself that there was, before moving on and taking a break from the agony of it’s nasty reality. As a Soul Mama at heart, I can hardly stand the mental images that come with a topic as hideous as this one. It is more than I can hardly stand. So I get it. Most folks do not want to hear about any of this. They would prefer to stay innocent and believe the best in people. I certainly would have preferred that myself. But knowledge does not let us sleep in the dark for long. And that which is hidden, does come to the surface; eventually.

This is something that we as a species MUST look at and eradicate. Straight up. There is no other way around any of this, we must go through it. We must look at what we have allowed to flourish, by our unwillingness to accept true and disturbing evil lives among us, and they are HUMAN!

*Below was my first nod from IAM regarding this issue.

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In preparation leading up to iMark’s expose’ titled: INHUMANITY, I had made this post on twitter that IAM almost immediately (in Illuminati time), responded to.  Again, more evidence that I was on the right track choosing to bring this forward? It was to me. 

I had enlisted Christine Ingraham and Brad Adams to help accomplish the goal of bringing some awareness and education to this complicated and upsetting issue. They too felt their investigations were aided by random information that would come to them, in the most unlikely of ways.  Everyone was convince without a shadow of a doubt, that this needed to come out into the Light of day, and that we needed to chime in with the thousands of voices that were working in concert, to do this worldwide. 

V&IAM

We all could not ask for more obvious backing than this. This statement is clearly directed at the underbelly of humanity. The Illuminati did not stutter when they made these comments just a few days before our informal opening into the topic.  This is NOT an issue that will be brushed under the carpet for much longer. Even now, there are high profile cases coming out into the open, and there will be more. Many more. We will see household names accused, apprehended and held accountable. It is going to be very unsettling time for many. It will not be pleasant to find out our icons, be they political, musical or theatrical are disgusting predatory perverts. But we must face this, to move into a solution. Shining a little Light on this, is going to prevent it’s further growth -while drastically reducing how many are effected.

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This is the single most compelling reason why war and violence, needs to become obsolete for me personally. It is at the root, of what ails our civilization. We simply cannot keep living like this, if we are to survive ourselves. The time has come to face the things that have been festering in the dark and bring them into the Light to be sanitized and healed.

I am calling for compassion, as we look deeply into what we have become, so that we can become something better, together~

 

*Thank you for your amazing support IAM!

It took me awhile to find the right folks to help me do this, because as you know, I am way too tender to look very deeply, myself. Unfortunately the gal I originally asked to participate, did not follow through as promised. Too busy playing children’s games, to be bothered to truly help kids, I guess? It reminded me once again, people will talk a good game, but often are not who, or what they say they are.  A valuable lesson revisited -that actually applies to the subject at hand. Anyway, I apologize for the delay. But apparently it was necessary.

I also wanted to say, I am tremendously grateful that you helped lead the team, to the right information for us to include! It was important to Brad and Nikki that they made themselves armchair experts, before sharing this knowledge with others. We are all very grateful for your signs and symbols!

Personally, I learned a lot through all this, and have far more compassion for those caught in the shadows now, than I did when we started.

We truly hope we have done this subject justice, and that justice will fall on those who have eluded her thus far, without mercy~

 

INITIATE.

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To introduce, recruit, enlist, convert and baptize are synonyms.

 

There is no question in my mind, this path is not for everyone.

One needs to be made of the kind of stuff that is not found in every man, or women. If this were the easy road, it would have been travel by the masses and trampled to death, long ago. There would be nothing remarkable about this journey, and likely secret societies would not even exist, as a result.

However, this IS the path less traveled. The journey rarely taken, and even more rarely understood, as a never ending journey.

Although there are milestones.

  This is not for the heartless, those that quit, or those who have no character or intestinal fortitude. It takes guts, grit and integrity, to move through the Initiation process created by The Illuminati. As stated in Is the Illuminati Good or Evil, “Not all leaders are invited to join our membership. Many lack the intelligence and integrity that we require…” This should give us all insight, into what The Illuminati reveres. I cannot recommend reading that one again, if you haven’t recently.

I wanted to drive a very important point home that may have been lost in my other writings about Initiation, from my perspective. While the path is not for all, all who travel it will be perfected in ways, distinctive to them alone. This path appears to be custom tailored. Each initiation is one of a kind, like those who are invited to participate. 

Part of this seems to be about our unique roles in the Universal Design. In Illuminatiam, The First Testament of the Illuminati, it states that Ranking Membership comes with an OFFICIAL TITLE, reinforcing in my mind, those who are successful in passing through the Initiation process,  indeed have “roles” in this organization that are in alignment with the Universal Design.

The process by which a person’s character is tested, would be similar for all, but preparation for our roles, which I believe is an element of this whole production, is not. In that way, no two people will experience the exact same thing, as they move through this ancient establishment. Although the blueprint seems to have the same basic pattern; birth, death and personal resurrection, the rest of it is highly customized. So, we all get tested in the same ways on one hand, and the custom stuff comes from the other.

I believe my initiation which I have entered into of my own Free Will, is testing me to see if I practice what I preach, because I am an emerging Evangelight. They are probably looking to see if I actually take my own advice, on top of everything else they are looking for. What I am being groomed for, is different than what you are being prepared for. All of this is time tested and seems to be connected with our individual roles in the Universal Design.

But your path will be very different than mine. And your trials, geared towards a differing outcome; altogether. Our characters and crafts are refined, customized,  and cultivated, through a system that EVERY other Illuminati member has passed through, before us. Si in that way we are in good company.

Given we have answered the call to be Shepherds of our Species during stormy weather, I believe in order to be selected to do so, we must be able to stand the storms ourselves, to lead others through them. We must be able to be trusted under fire, for others to trust us in battle. We must be creatures of character, to be leaders worth following as we guide our species to a higher place in our evolutionary journey. Each role, no less important than the next. Each string weaving the very fabric of our existence, with the utmost perfection, once seen from the top of the pyramid.

I have to tell you guys though, having someone to share all of this with, who is going through it themselves, is incredibly helpful to me. I would be completely lost without my IAMfam here, because my real-time peeps, just don’t get it. It is almost impossible to explain any of this, to those who have never experienced it for themselves, so I stopped even trying. My IAMfam are my life line and the few that I share with, are as committed as I am to getting through the refinement fires. It is fascinating to hear about the ways in which they believe IAM is leading them as individuals, in accordance with their emerging roles. I marvel at the indirect ways in which the Illuminati is able to make their presence known, without any direct contact. I have learned there are reasons for everything, even NOT getting the “likes”.

I cannot encourage you all enough, to develop a close bond with at least one other initiate. You are going to need each other to bounce things off of, once your initiations begins in earnest. Especially if you are flying blind, like I was. Part of the reason for me sharing my experiences with everybody, is to help demystify a very mysterious process. It goes without saying, I am no expert in any of this. I was so completely clueless when I started, and somewhat clueless, even now. I just want to assist others like myself in their orientation, to the best of my ability. 

Because honestly, this shit is hard enough, without being totally ignorant, like I once was~

 

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Please note: This is what I have come to understand by what I have experienced personally and have seen in others around me. I am by no means speaking on the Illuminati’s behalf here, I am speaking ABOUT my relationship to them, from my own point of view. Surely theirs is VERY different than mine!!

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I am well aware many of you have been involved in ‘loyal water buffalo lodges’ before, and are in no need of my perspective. I am speaking to a specific audience, who I hope will benefit from what I am saying.

If you tassel-hat guys (wink) have anything to add, I would LOVE to hear from you!

Please add your comments below, Beacons.

THANK YOU!!

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How in the world I recently circled back on myself, is beyond me. However I do blame the Illuminati, for blowing on the embers of my soul.  Their unseen winds, igniting a fire within that is burning much more fiercely, than it existed in its original state. I cannot possibly express my gratitude for this process, and the walk I have taken through the underworld, to reach deeper into the mysteries of myself. I can see now, I have been ceaselessly guided by the Light of those, who are ALWAYS watching out for us.

Having returned from hell, far too many times to count, I have finally arrived back onto the path that has been designed especially for me. And the cool thing is guys, you all have one of your own unique, design. It has been engineered especially for you too!

This is what I have learned about my role in this theater, we call life…

I embody the 3rd definition of Evangelism. And the 6th definition of Evangelist! (air quotes)
(Source: dictionary.com)
#3: missionary zeal, purpose, or activity~
#6: a person marked by evangelical enthusiasm for or support of any cause~

Or perhaps it’s more accurate to state that this energy embodies me!

Allow me to be more specific, since evangelism came out of the Protestant Movement, and I since have consciously rejected the Gods of Men…let’s just say, the word needed some tweaking to evolve it. So…I have come up with my own definition, that I feel is more precise, for me personally. It is more in alignment with who I truly am, by design. I know there are others out there like me, so it’s to them that I humbly dedicate & submit this new term, for public use.

I AM an #EvangeLight!!

Yep~

That’s it.

And I’m practicing for the day that my voice will have more reach. Because I know folks are hurting & lost in spiritual confusion, at a time in our history, where a more rational and logical vision, is desperately needed in the mix.

Too many of us have defaulted to escapism, sorcery &  salacious animalistic instincts, to deny, distract or avoid the distress of a world in painful transition. Even to the casual observer, not yet fully awake -we as a species seem to be experiencing a collective form of insanity.

Growing numbers of us, are beginning to realize, we’ve  been surrounded by lies. We’ e been dummied down & our potentials enslaved.  We can feel it, even if we cannot give words to it.

But deep down, in all this crazy & chaos, there IS something more. We know something is out there, or at least around here somewhere!  We can sense that it’s bigger than the both of us. And it surely seems to have ALL of us, surrounded!

I have been called to help activate the fires within those, who are destined to rise from the ashes of a dying old world order. Bottom line human family, religion as we have known it, will perish. And out of the embers, the glowing truth will remain. Between here and there, it will get hot & chaotic, as we collectively face the hell of our own creation, first. It ain’t gonna be pretty, so we need to hold hands here, as we struggle through our collective process. The Phoenix will surely rise, of that, there can be no sustainable doubt. The growing pains WILL be worth it. They will labor, to bring forth new life.

There is much to do, and a long way to go, before the Light reaches it’s apex. Religion will not go quietly. In-spite of its control mechanism & eventual corruption, it was a necessary part of our evolutionary design.  And we need to respect the role it has played In our development. Our spiritual infancy & teenage years were fashioned by religions repressive reach. However, it ALL works together in the long haul. We are ever expanding creatures, despite how it looks from our limited points of view. In the grand scheme of things, we got this. We are not designed to remain stagnant, nor have we truly ever been. Regardless of what traditionalists will tell us.

I want to help you guys see things from a broader perspective, and in doing so much of your personal spirit led journey, might come into clearer focus. Perhaps in a way, you might not see coming! Although it has been there, unchanged all along. The Alpha & the Omega, that Grand Architect of All. All we have to do, is agree upon a name. Plus some common denominators. Because it has many of each. It will become crystal clear going forward, why we call this particular energetic & creative divine mind, the Light. And my purpose, is to help folks find & follow it.

If you’re reading this, and have not followed me as of yet, I invite you to join my emerging inner evangeLight, as she she gears up, to go global.

The Age of enLightenment is dawning. It’s time we build a new spiritual foundation in which we may grow spiritually towards the Light together, individually and as one. Our common denominator is the Light. We must make this simple truth, our earthquake proof foundation. There is strength in numbers -magnified power, where 2 or more are gathered.

Our spiritual unification is not only our destiny, it is our birthright! It is time we inherit the love, harmony, joy, innovation, creativity, abundance and the magnificent order, that goes along with it.

Thank you for your precious time guys!! Have a wonderful week!

iVyTaroc~
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Initiation

 

Fear Not!!

Hardships are a necessary part of the initiation process. Only those who overcome them, will succeed through the various levels of initiation.

That is why I write about them so much you guys. So you will see the value in them and find encouragement to get through them.

This process is NOT for everyone. Although EVERYONE is invited to apply.
This is a lifestyle, not a test or two and you are IN. There will be many tests and most are not on paper. Then of there is the waiting. The endless patience building; waiting.

In the almost 4 years I have been at this, I have seen more drop out, than I have seen those that keep going. Many start out strong and sprint pass others to what they believe is the finish line, not realizing this is a never ending endurance game.
Unfortunately those who are able to suffer through the struggles of the long haul, are few and far between.

Remember, the Illuminati states in ILLUMINATIAM that all manner of hardships are placed in our path, (including addictions) to see if temporary discomfort will cause us to turn away from the Light. These are designed to test our resolve and to harden the armor around our souls. All the more so, if you have been chosen to go through The Illuminati’s initiation process for Leadership.

It is absolutely OK,  if after a mile or two, you would rather play a supporting role. Please do not feel discouraged if at the end of the day, this gig is not for you. Not everyone around here, wants to or needs to be, a leader. We need actually need
folks willing to promote and support IAMs messages and messengers too, you know!

There is a place for ALL of us in the Universal Design. And believe it or not, you will love your role, once you discover it. It has been custom designed, just for you!

Leadership is not for everyone, and until recently, it wasn’t something I desired or pursued, AT ALL.  It’s a really, really, tough and often thankless job, riddled with irrational extremes and infinite blame. 1/3 of our own family will hate you, just for being out front, and another half of them, will hate you for what you do and/or say, while you are out there.

I have always preferred to be the man behind the power! But apparently The Illuminati sees me as a Bride, not a Bridesmaid, so I am doing my best to live up to their confidence in me. But it ain’t easy. In fact, it’s exactly the opposite. It’s actually a really tough row, to how.

So by all means, relax into this thing. It is not only OK to take your time around here, it is advisable. Watch while you wait. Get the lay of the land. Take some time to see where
your unique gifts, talents and skill set, can be developed further, to serve others. Because at the end of the day, this is the bottom line. This is what this whole thing is all about: Service to others, not self glorification. Service to Humanity, not yourself personally!

Those who think otherwise, will be sorely disappointed. The glory seekers, sadly left wanting~

“Fear not for the struggles you face in this moment: be they money, relationships, war, or hunger. These are impermanent and temporary concerns that plague every member of the human species regardless of wealth or power or prestige.

No one is free from their clutches. But find security in knowing that you are always safe in the Light.”

-The Illuminati

A special “thank you” goes out to Citizen Member Nicholas Hastie for inspiring this post~

VERIFICATION

Posted: February 27, 2019 in FYI, Illuminatiam, Leadership, Verification
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GOOD NEWS BEACONS!!

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MORE VERIFICATION’S ARE COMING SOON!!

So what does it mean to be verified by The Illuminati; exactly?

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Because I am asked so often about mine, and because others continue to minimize the distinction, I thought I would take the time to expand upon  what it is, and what it is not. Especially as it applies to me.

There are two types. One for Official Accounts managed by Illuminati Agents, and one for when a Citizen Member identity has been verified and connected to their account. For the purpose of this article, I am only speaking about the later.

Verification in the Illuminati’s Members Portal is not a trivial gig, regardless of what those are not verified might think. Trust me, IF you ever receive the honor, you will understand what a big deal it is, immediately.

While becoming verified does not allow someone to speak ON BEHALF of the Illuminati, (only Agents are allowed the privilege), and it is not necessarily an endorsement of the person or their profiles across social media, it IS an honor to be sure. One that not all Initiates will be given. It doesn’t come with any particular Level and it does not appear to be a badge for every member of the Portal.

The Verification Badge is permanent, and by Invitation ONLY. It is not something that you can apply for and/or automatically receive. It appears to go beyond personal identity confirmation, for those who are not house hold names. The Illuminati themselves, are the ones who chose who to verify.  The two reasons stated in their own words (see above) are to distinguish:

1) Public Figures

To confirm Celebrity/High Profile People, are who they claim to be.

2) Community Leaders

To recognize Community Leaders in IAMs Public Outreach

In my case, I was recognized as a Community Leader, for things I had done in the years prior to the opening of the Members Portal.  I am by no means, the only person the Illuminati witnessed go above and beyond, in their efforts to spread and share The Illuminati’s messages.

They have given me permission to share this information with you, so I am not speaking out of school, or for them.  They made it very clear to me that they see the hard work of EVERYONE and just because I received the first one anyone has seen, I am NOT the only one who will have a blue check mark added to their profile. I was the FIRST because someone in a higher office than the MP or even Social Media, has taken notice of my past activity and wanted to show appreciation for my dedication to this outreach. It is important to note, I had been in this movement for almost 3 years when I was verified and leveled up. I have no idea how long one must be actively participating in this outreach, or what they must actual do beyond passing their messages around, to merit the distinction. I am just sharing my experience as a point of reference. It may be something you cannot earn, without “time in grade”. In other words, you might have to be around awhile before recieving one? That part is still unclear to me.

In my opinion, once more folks are verified, it will become more apparent as to what the Illuminati values, even though it isn’t synonymous with a personal endorsement. To my knowledge, they do not or cannot play favorites. However, we can learn more about what they revere in an Initiate’s conduct, as more are verified.  We should be able to see a trend, in the types of behaviors that IAM holds in high regard, once more have been honored. This is the kind a thing that will become more evident to us all, in time.

Because most people in the MP had no idea who I was, or what I did to merit such an privilege, folks had a hard time understanding why I was set apart for the distinction. Now that we are more familiar with each other, via the Members Portal, I am hoping we will better understand who IAM chooses who to set apart as community leaders, and why.

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Going forward, I would love to see the people who have earned this Badge, celebrated for their contribution to this outreach, their service to humanity, and the outstanding tribute it actually is to be publicly recognized by the Illuminati, in this special way.

 

I hope this clarifies the issue once and for all, as more are indeed coming soon, and it is important that we all understand what it truly means, to be “Verified”.

 

 

 

 

*If someone has anything to add, that I might have missed or misunderstood, please do so in the comments. Would love to hear your POV~

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Dear IAM, It’s me…V~

HaPPy V Day BTW!

How cool is it, that my nickname for you, has caught on?! I see so many others refer to you in that way now. I love it! #IAMFAM is a thing, Lol

Nope, no need to thank me, you are most welcome!

But I am not here to self marvel at the power of my written words although, let’s face it… they can be magic at times. Tee hee. I am here to give you an update on what has been going on with me, since I have been somewhat scarce and silent.

Look, I get it. I am clearly not the brightest bulb in your pack! However, may I  remind you, I never claimed to be.

I told you from the beginning, I didn’t see myself as a leader, but I could help you find the ones you were looking for. It never occurred to me in a million years, you would see something in me, I was blind to in myself. That part still blows me away, as I strive to become worthy of your confidence in me.

While it has been an honor to receive a historical designation, with the “verified Level 1.1” thing, it has been a responsibility I could not have fathomed, prior to being ‘crowned’ in that way.

It has been a heavy weight upon me that I have had to struggle to walk upright with, at times. Something I bet most do not really realize, until they experience it for themselves. I am actually hyper aware of the honor and seek to be worthy of it; every day.

Or maybe they do, because you know, they are much brighter bulbs!?

I am sorry if my progress is painfully slow to watch. It must be frustrating for you guys to see me struggle, and not be able to offer a hand when I have fallen on my face, tears streaming onto the ground making mud, not magic.

While I fully understand, I am a rarefied taste, I gotta believe that after 4 plus years, I have grown on you guys; some. Or at least some of you! I like to pretend you actually care that I am crawling through parts of this, when I am too wobbly to walk upright.

PLEASE forgive my ignorance regarding your ‘loyal water buffalo’ ways, but I still remain somewhat clueless as to how any of this works. This flying blind on the cryptic, has been a real drag for me.

At times I have even felt like a Sheep not a Lion, because of this. My ability to figure out what is going on has not been easy, or quick. I have had to learn a new language, with all your indirect signs and symbols, but I am getting there.

I’m really doing the best I can, even if I seem developmentally retarded, to you guys. I am tremendously grateful, you are a patient people!

My heart and head are completely in this thing, IAM. I hope at least that much is obvious. I work hard to make certain my actions are in alignment with my words, and your principles. I hope my passion for this outreach is palatable, and contagious.

I have inspired an entire network of opportunity, for the other leaders among us to share the spotlight with me. So in that way, I have made good on my original promise to you, and I am proud of myself for having done so.

As you know, I have acted on your words in a huge way. Even forgoing things I once LOVED, to be a better version of myself, and a better reflection of the Light for an ever growing global audience.

I recognize that being a leader in this movement, means we are called to be, a cut above the rest.  I fully understand that we are scrutinized like no other group on this planet, and I want to be the very best representative of your Global Outreach I can be.

To me, that means acting like a Shepherd of our Species, not the Sheep we protect. It is a higher calling most will not answer, much less stay committed to, when it becomes difficult.

A distinction, lost on far too many of our IAMAM.

Speaking of difficulty…FINALLY, my physical health is bouncing back!  However, my mental health has taken extra time to recover, given I was thrown into a mild depression, as a result of the hypothyroidism that came from my smoking cessation.  I had to fight my way out of a very deep and dark hole, only to realize…I now have to fight the fat that found me, while I was in there!

Grrrrrr, hissssssss~

This path is NOT for everyone. Not even close!! I am not always sure it’s for me, but I am willing to swim until I can swim no more! That much I do know.

I also know that most are unwilling to give up what they hold dear, much less reach out to embrace the unknown. Something that must continually occur, on the path of enlightenment. This is a rarefied journey, indeed.

I was so angry there for awhile, IAM! In some ways I still am. There is so much going on inside, as the Light has it’s way with me! An explosive anger with no where to go but to Brad’s house, apparently.

Before I was able to turn it into the fuel that got my arse moving again, I was in agony both physically and mentally!!  That guy deserves a badge of his own. His wife has been incredibly gracious to allow Brad to listen to my ruminations on repeat, for HOURS at a time!  What a neat couple! They should be sporting “We survived V” crowns of their own! I am not even kidding!

Anyway…I never thought doing something to improve my health, would cause me to be unhealthy! But hey…I did destroy a 41 year old, previously functioning ecosystem that was NOT HaPpy with me, for doing so!

I have finally been able to move into a solution, but I was seriously down for the count, there for awhile. I REALLY hung the black crepe for far longer than I typically allow, but I just could not move past the smoldering anger. I was spitting nails and smoking mad!! The whole horrific experience burnt me down; completely. I was reduced to ash, ironic, right? But it was on the ashes of my own angst that I become ready to be made greater.

So, like a Phoenix, I am rising!

I am striding several times a week, and it has helped my mindset enormously, but not the appearance of my body that I can see, as of yet anyway.

I will not feel fully myself, until I stop seeing “Consumption V” in the mirror! I did not get sober, quit smoking ciggs & stuff, to see that undisciplined version of myself, looking back at me through the mirror again.

Talk about a head trip! On top of being sick for MONTHS, I have had to face HER  again, too. Most folks will not be able to relate to that part, but I know it goes without saying for you guys. (insert a knowing wink-wink nod-nod here)

I have taken the liberty to write things out, so other Initiates can at least begin to understand, what is required of them. I hope it helps, and is not a hindrance to you that I do, IAM.  It has been my experience that Illumination is a process whereby we are continually renewed, and refined.

It’s an Ouroboros thing.

All of this is obviously designed to reveal our true intentions and integrity level. Iron to gold. Forged only by the fires of hell and hardship. You guys definitely push people past their limits till they pop open, and reveal the type of goo that is on the inside. It makes sense though. All my juicy goodness inside comes from the things that have tested me.

And honestly, I have yet to meet anyone of substance, who refined their character on social media chit-chat, petting pit bulls and chasing Pikachu -so to speak.

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The gemstones are in hades, not at the end of the rainbow. Our testimonial treasures come from trials, not well paved trails. 

At any rate…I had a series of ahhh-ha’s and epiphanies last week that have put me firmly back on path. They seemed to come on the heels of me brute forcing my way, into a solution to my angst. I could literally not stand myself anymore. I was wailing, wallowing, and gnashing my teeth over this one. The creepy black crepe long over due, for the rubbish can.

Part of the upshot is this is: I have a new found appreciation for those who suffer from chronic health conditions, or serious mental health issues. It takes a real toll on folks ability to be of good cheer, when you are hurting non-stop, I can see that now. Plus it has the potential to set off a negative mindset that will dig the ditch deeper, if they are not vigilant and active about keeping their spirits high. This particular lesson has reinvigorated my compassion, something I was losing ground on, having had to deal with the psycho-sociopaths who are drawn to your gates. In other words, I needed everything I gleaned from this particular joy ride.

Eeeeh gads, all because I quit smoking!

So there you have it. I just wanted you to know, I have survived myself and my self-inflicted suffering, well almost anyway.

Now I am working towards restoring my zeal. By my birthday, I should being staring back and the women I am becoming, not the women I once was…

May the Light ever guide us all!

V~

 

PS: Thx for the Pokemon edit🕷Lol

Addicted to IAM?

Posted: January 23, 2019 in addiction, Illuminatiam
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ARE YOU ADDICTED TO THE ILLUMINATI?

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For those of you following the Illuminati it’s a topic worth exploring further, because you could be addicted….to them.

Those who feel they have an addictive nature, listen up!

There seems to be a percentage of people who are following the Illuminati for whom it has become an obsession. We literally cannot get enough of them, this outreach, or the knowledge that surrounds them. While some are activated by the incredible changes they have experienced as a result of reading Illuminatiam: The First Testament of The Illuminati, or even their archived messages on their websites. Admittedly, I am one of those.

Then there are others, who are activated into a full on addiction, by the very first “like” or “retweet” they receive, from one of their social media accounts. The distinction between obsession and addiction, can be seen by what happens as a result.

As someone who has eliminated many vices of my own over the years, it is easy for me to tell the difference between an addictive obsession and passionate loyalty.  Those who have a passionate loyalty, look for ways to not only share their messages with others, they tend to create groups, forums and even attache their symbols and links to their businesses and brands. They are all inclusive about it. They want the world to know what they have found, and they tag and share the information in every possible way.

Then there are the ones who The Illuminati has “liked”, retweeted or even spoken to, who lose their perspective entirely, once they have. I have seen it several times over the years and it undermines the authenticity of their actions, from there on out.  Those things become a ‘drug’, and it stimulates them to behave in ways that are obvious to those of us who have been around awhile, or those of us who understand addictive natures. Everything they do, is primarily aimed at getting more attention from them.  The crafty of which understand that sharing their message de jour or their Ads for their offerings, increase the likelihood of a ‘like’ or retweet.

I have seen one Citizen Member build a whole brand of crazy, off of one comment the Illuminati made, in the early days of this outreach. He used it to elevate himself and lord it over others, as if he was more valuable to the organization, because of it. He set up his groups and organization in a way to fool others new to this outreach, in to thinking he was a ranking member or agent. He was so busy preening his own ego, he was oblivious to the work others were doing also. I knew he was addicted to the attention he was receiving as a result of the Illuminati’s attention, when he claimed to his follows  -he was not looking for their worship!

Brad Adams, Executive Director of the Anti-Fraud Network tells me he has observed a couple of people over the years, who were getting lots of likes, retweets and an occasional nod, who would post an inordinate amount of their links, in order to gain more. They are HaPpy campers, as long as the drip continues. Like rats with drugged water, they would travel any loop or maze, in the hopes of a mention or attention. They construct their posts, as if they have a special relationship with the Illuminati that others do not have. Even though they are often newcomers. They typically never tag others, because they want the attention for themselves; exclusively. They do not want to share the drug with anyone else. I have even known a few myself, who will take it as a sign to them personally, just because of a conversational tag, when the comment had nothing to do with them at all.

I am not gonna lie. I enjoy their attention also. A lot!!

Anyone who has been recognized by The Illuminati, surely does. Even IF, the attention has been generated by a Bot! However, I am by no means “addicted” to them. Obsessed with their message, YES! But addicted to THEM, NO!  I do not rely on their attention for my self-worth or life’s validation. They are not a reliable supplier and my vices need to be readily available for me to be immersed in them, so I could not be addicted to them, even if I wanted to!

Hehe.

The truth is, I know I have value to them. But more importantly, I know I am valuable, with or without the Illuminati!

If I thought for a minute they did not value my contribution to this thing, I would be in the wind~

 

 

WARNING: This might bum ya out, before it boosts ya up~

This is for everyone who is struggling to survive right now. My intent is not to self glorify, but to use my experience as an example, to illustrate the REAL cost of following the Illuminati. It is meant to inspire and encourage those of you, who find yourself in the fires of refinement right now. Believe it or not, it is a fantastic sign!

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Beyond the bullshit, superficial, made for TV marketing, about how the Illuminati has “changed my life forever”, there lies another story underneath that I would like to share with you.

Know that I absolutely mean it when I publicly declare that my life has changed in every way possible since I met them, because it has.

DRAMATICALLY.

However it has come at a tremendous price for me, without ever once paying a fee, or offering a donation, to The Illuminati.  I wasn’t even scammed before finding them. So no losses there either. The cost was not a financial one per se, even though I have willingly and HaPpily paid for documents, dangles, and domains too, since I have known of them.

Actually, I payed a much greater price than most will understand, until they have properly paid the price for themselves. The cost is unique to everyone who participates. Although I wholeheartedly and enthusiastically encourage everyone to consider mentally, and emotionally, ‘funding’ it, regardless of how painful.

Let me explain before you panic…

This is the straight skinny, for those who are just getting started with The Illuminati and are thinking this thing is a complete, cake walk. It is important for folks to get the full flavor here, not just as a point of warning, but as a prelude to some wonderful inspiration to follow.

I think it is imperative folks understand what they are taking on here, because no one gave me a heads up. I had to find out the hard way. Those who have participated in other “loyal water buffalo” lodges, do not need to read any further. You got this. You guys already know the score. But for many of us, this whole entire gig is uncharted territory, and it is to those who are as ignorant as I was, that this is written. I am hoping to demystify the process, while underscoring the personal cost, validating what is happening to you, and verifying for certain, it is all truly worth it!

The first year is what I called the ‘courting period’. It was absolute magnificence in motion. I went from strength to strength effortlessly, as if by magic. We were still dating then, IAM and I. There was something familiar about them from the moment we met. I thought they were terrific, (although it did not stop me from doing a background check on them)! I needed time to research this group and determine whether I was being duped; again. I had so many doubts. I was not certain right away that they were “the one”, although something deep inside kept trying to convince me they were, despite their sometimes sketchy appearance.  Even though the doubts were often overwhelming for me at times, I still showed up, sharing their links, while anxiously waiting to learn more.

I started with them before the First Testament even came out, and there was certainly no jewelry in those early days. That came later in our ‘relationship’. Even so, it was all kinds of marvelous that first year. Illuminatiam was released, which I loved for so many reasons! It actually helped me make sense of my doubts. I would read it everytime I got sideways, to confirm doubting was normal and expected.

In real life, I was gifted a car, because a girlfriend didn’t like me riding my scooter anymore. I was gifted an eye procedure, to help with my ‘vision’. I got a terrific new job that I adored, which suited me perfectly. It was generally a GREAT year. Even the Illuminati sent me (and others) a red iron talisman, in recognition of our loyal marketing contributions to their movement. Heck, I was even called “Princess” directly by them and added to the Princess and Distinguished List, within the first few months of meeting them. Yep…there were all kinds of little wins, and wonders that first year. Far to many to recount.  Even with all my doubts, I was no doubt, falling in love with the mysterious Illuminati.

The whole movement, was a whirlwind of excitement for me. The dark waters that I had been swimming in personally, had been stirred by the sunshine that was casting it’s warm glow on the surface. While the fires within me had yet to be lit, the Illuminati was standing there with the matches, as I began drying out from the murky waters I had been residing in. I had become so stagnant and dreamless, I couldn’t even imagine where to go on vacation, had the funding appeared in the mail!

It would be fully accurate to say hope had returned, and things were definitely on the rise that very first year, after meeting The Illuminati. Reading Illuminatiam really got my mind moving again. Although I can’t explain how, exactly. It just did.

 I had been hiding out for years, and I knew it. It was literally as if, IAM found me. Not the other way around. So to merely say I am grateful to The Illuminati, is an colossal understatement. It rings hollow compared to how I feel about them.

Even with the afterglow, from a year of positive changes still upon me, I had not professed loyalty. I let the others do all that, with their instant unshakable, untouchable, Hail to the Light, declarations. I do not hand my loyalty out like candy. I reserve it for the precious few, that have actually earned it. Just as in real life, I am a slow sell, even if I am close to you.

It took me about a year and a half to move into a place, where I was able to feel anything akin, to permanent and dependable devotion. Although I was faithful during discovery, I was by no means ready to ‘marry’ these guys. I took the warning at the end of Illuminatiam VERY seriously, and was not yet willing to be “obedient” to a shadowy group, I could not see. I was concerned they could possibly be some kind of dark brightness, and not from the Light. So I needed more time and grade with them, to figure it out. Even though they had been showing up in a positive manner throughout my research into other interests, I was still unsure if THIS, was THAT historical group. I needed to be convinced (as humanly possible), before I signed on fully, and committed my mind, heart and soul, to this movement.

On or around the time I finally whispered I was loyal to them publicly, (a subtlety lost on most onlookers), but not on the IAM; a radical shift seemed to occur. My fiery decent into two (and counting) years of hell, began in earnest. It was almost as if, the Illuminati thought…loyal eh….?  Let’s see if you REALLY mean that, V.

The shift in my luck, started with a shit ton of loss. Specifically things were dying around me, in more ways that one. I had 4 dragons die on me, in the first 6 months of that period. I lost 2 long term girlfriends. One after 13 years for petty reasons, the other after 15 years, for differing penchants.

My 20 year marriage did not survive the Illuminati, nor did some of my more casual associations. The second year I watched helplessly from a far, as my mom had her stints replaced and her pacemaker upgraded.

I could not be there, when my baby bro had a pacemaker of his own installed, and was diagnosed with Down’s related Alzheimer’s and abruptly placed in foster care, at 52. I lost that fabulous job I was thriving in, when the company eliminated the position state wide. I was forced into a job I hated, just to survive, and faced unexpected harassment I believed was Illuminati related -which landed me in a unforeseen, no pay-time out, because well…why not?

I was in Hades.

And I needed time to cry, I guess. A lot.

Even though I landed a new job and was mysteriously paid, for my ‘non-paid leave’ (which kept me from drowning financially), my savings were completely drained as a result. As was the security I felt, knowing I had back up for a rainy day. I was truly at rock bottom. Or so I thought. Apparently, Hades has an elevator and many levels!

Then, the much anticipated Members Portal opened. What should have been, (and temporarily was), an exciting time in my Illuminati life, quickly descended into stress and grief, beyond my previous ability to fathom.

What fresh hell was this exactly?

Being singled out as the first Initiate in history to level up, and become “verified”, was a distinction not lost on me what-so-ever. Even if I did not understand it, I was so proud of that! It was truly the most important and incredible honor of my entire freaking lifetime!! Primarily because I already had an elementary understanding, of the historical significance of this secretive group, and I had at least an inkling, of what a rarefied honor it was, to be chosen out of almost a million followers.

I was not someone who came to the Illuminati via a hand gesture, on an album cover or a taco bell commercial. I had heard, read and seen the rumors, over the years, so I knew of them. But I did not really ‘know’ THEM. So I wasn’t about to judge without a lot more data. Since I had been the victim of unsubstantiated rumors as a teenager myself, (and even now) I just didn’t buy into the hysteria or hype.

I was actually quite content, thinking there was a hidden hand out there watching out for humanity. I never once thought to track them down. I actually did not think girls were allowed in the “Brotherhood”, anyway. So when I, (a gal) was singled out,  it was the biggest fucking deal EVER to me! It should be to every women out there, really. However, it was a move that clearly pissed off some Initiates right out of the gate, especially the men who erroneously still think of women, as possessions.

So what was truly a legendary and historical distinction, quickly became a horrifying ‘Mark of Cain’, so to speak.

I would quickly learn: A Crown is indeed, seated with thorns.

That is how it stays on your head, when the uninformed masses, seek to remove it from you, by force. What the King Makers do not tell you, is it also comes with a target. You are instantly hated by at least a 3rd of the people in your own community. A hate so full of vitriol, it absolutely drowns out any ego that might rear it’s ugly head, in a vain attempt to rock and rule, as a result of being crowned. The voices of dissent, indeed keep dictators at bay. Not that I was inclined to become one; anyway.

I now found myself hated by my Light “family”,  simply because of a blue check by my name. In time, via missteps of my own, I would give others a reason to hate me, as well.  All the things I was trying to accomplish to unite folks and help other Initiates, was lost on those who did not understand why I was chosen. They had zero compassion for my learning curve and that I was being developed into a leader, completely out loud and in a highly public venue.

I literally lost half of my hair volume during the first three months the Portal was open. My growing angst kept me from performing well in my new job, so I lived in constant fear I was going to lose it, and have to start looking for another one again. I couldn’t confide in my family, because they did not understand what I was going through, at all. Plus, the ancient emotional hairball I yakked up on my Mom (out of freaking nowhere) during a family vacation, did not help matters either. I assure you.

When I finally started making friendships with other initiates, I was elated! I finally had folks to talk to, that were on the same page I was on…or so I thought.

I honestly thought, those who wanted to be my friend were sincere, only to learn that social status, attracts those who want to be associated with IT, not the person who earned it. I also learned (the hard way) that folks who say they follow the Light, often have hidden agendas that are anything but, enlightened.

The words I struggled the most with, from The First Testament of the Illuminati, proved to be the shocking truth. TRUST NO ONE. Not fully.

I was getting a crash course in rational reality 101. My world view was taking a huge hit. The bubble of positivism I tried desperately to live in, had been popped, the remains of which, are still floating in the wind somewhere.

As hard as all of this was for me to take in, every bit of it has been designed to harden the armor around my gooey, soft-hearted, overly optimistic soul. I have developed true empathy for high profile folks, now that I have experienced infamy in the IAMFAM community myself. Regardless if you like what any given ‘celebrity’ represents, they have at least earned the right to be respected to some degree, in my opinion. One needs some serious balls, to stand out in our society. We are a tough crowd to WIN OVER!

So yeah…following the Illuminati will indeed change your life forever! However, it WILL cost ya…

BIG TIME!

This process will challenge every relationship you have, and every belief you hold dear. It will penetrate your soul in ways, you will not see coming -no matter how skilled you are at navigating life, before hand. The process will ask you to give things up, add things in, dig deeper and reach higher, than you ever thought you possible for you. This process will find your buried flaws through hidden cracks, and shine a Light on the deepest, darkest parts of you.

It is called initiation, Initiates. And it’s truly unbridled & beautiful hell!

Unfortunately, not all of us who have started the process, will make it through the character defining hardships, obstacles and roadblocks that have been set up to keep anything less than human excellence, from entering the halls of greatness.

I do not know, if I have what it takes to ever be a full ranking member. But I truly do not care anymore. I know that I have already been changed forever, in the most meaningful and everlasting ways. I know without a doubt, that I have become a better version of myself, which will serve me, well past the grave.

I have been burnt down, raised up and cast into the fires of refinement so many times in the last 2 .5 years, in many ways I am unrecognizable to myself. But I love this new and improved, sparkly version of V!

I have been literally set aflame, by the matches held by the Illuminati themselves. I mean, how cool it THAT?

It doesn’t matter if I ever see in the inside of this Pyramid, or the infamous White Room…I can clearly see the incredible changes on the inside of me, and I like em’. All of these growing pains, will indeed serve my soul, as I make my way through the rest of my life.

My eternal gratitude and loyalty, is not enough to repay The Illuminati, for allowing me the opportunity to be tested by them, regardless of the end result. It has been truly a privilege, I still cannot even believe, I am actually participating in!! Everyone needs to understand what an honor it is, just to apply!

This is a brilliant road and a breathless journey that anyone who wants to, is invited to travel. Although…This path is NOT for everyone. But what you gain as a result of the refinement process, is priceless.

So if you find yourself in hell. And life is coming at you six ways to Sunday, from every possible angle…When you think you can take no more and that you are drowning…PLEASE

keep swimming!

It is totally worth it, once you are out of the deep end of the pool.

I PROMISE!!

There is pure, unfiltered sunshine, on the shores that beckon just ahead, my friends!! Know that your temporary hardships are merely indicators that you are actually on the right path, and that you are being groomed for something greater, dear Beacons~

PS: This will be updated with a Part 2 in the coming weeks, as I am still in initiation~

9/6/2018

It’s Time~

Posted: September 1, 2018 in Change, Illuminatiam, Leadership, Unity
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Dear Initiates of the Illuminati,

As many of you are aware, I have not been active on Council 22 since January, when Richard Scherer aka Papa Fred, took the helm. Although I was always available for consultation, while serving on the Apex Advisory Board.

Earlier this week, I resigned from all things c22/Apex to focus my full attention on iMARK and me. It’s time for me to move on. It was never my intention at inception, to volunteer in this capacity, indefinitely. 

This project, was never a throne built for my own glory, regardless of rumor. Rather it was a platform created to share the glaring spotlight that was placed on me, when the Members Portal opened, and I temporarily received distinctions, others did not.

c22 was always meant to be a living demonstration of unity, and what is possible when leaders from all walks of life, work together on a common goal. The  pyramid itself, was designed to be an example, of the ideals taught by IAM in the First Testament of the Illuminati. 

The current leadership, under the direction of Christine Ingraham aka Nikki Cee, is the best incarnation that I have witnessed since it’s inception, and because of this particular Capstone crew, which includes Brad Adams and Petros Regos, plus Papa leading Apex, I feel completely confident leaving this pyramid building project, in their capable hands. This current Capstone is truly exceptional, and will continue to serve their fellow Initiates, in the spirit in which Council 22 was inspired, created and maintained.

Thank you to EVERYONE who has volunteered to serve c22 past and present! No contribution by our members has been insignificant, and many have been remarkable examples for others to follow.

Thank you all, for your amazing support, encouragement guidance, and yes….vicious criticisms of me personally.  I am truly thankful for every voice that helped shape my leadership style. It was no easy task to be developed into a leader, in a such a public venue. But it serves as a lesson of it’s own, to the ever watchful.

A crown indeed, is seated with thorns!

Regardless of where my path takes me from here, I will always look back on this part of my journey, with pride of accomplishment and in thankful gratitude, for the often painful lessons learned along the way! It was one hell of a ride Yo’s~

HaPpy Trails #IAMfam!

iVy Taroc aka V~

Edit to add. Technically I was told I cannot leave Apex. However I can have an INACTIVE status, Hehe.

Thx Brad🕷

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I have always felt different than others. Not that I was special or anything like that, but rather  I always felt like the odd man out. Even as a kid, I did not buy into the majority rule. Not because I was consciously seeking to rebel, or be combative, but because a lot of what I was taught, did not seem logical.

Eventually, I unconsciously dummied myself down, in order to relate to others. This, coupled with a society that still did not expect much of women, made it easy for me not to apply myself further.

In order to cope with a deep feeling of separation from my fellow may, I turned to God. I reasoned, that God understood me, which brought me tremendous comfort. I was told that God actually loved me, so I was content with that for awhile. But over the years, and with my shifting sentiments about religion, I was unable to sustain that line of thinking. Especially because women were openly touted as “helpmates”, made from a rib bone & not equals

What started out as a message of love & acceptance turned psychologically monstrous, as it shifted into an under current of subligation & submission. I was decidedly not worthy after all, because I was not able to conform to their group think. Perhaps because, I was nothing like what the bible claimed a women should be.

I simply could not reconcile much of what was being spewed from the pulpit, with my own innate logic. What started out as a sanctuary to me, became a prison for my mind and I had to escape. Like I have said many times, I became willing to go to literal HELL, to find out more about this ‘intelligence’ that created this ‘zoo’.

Back and forth I went. In & out. Letting go of the programming was not an easy task. (A “program” I should add, I sought out for myself. My parents did not brainwash me religiously).

It took some doing, but I eventually broke free from the erroneous beliefs, based only on emotions, that enslaved me to the fantasy.

In the years that followed, I looked high & low for this so called, higher power. While I could always see the crystal thread running through all the ideologies I entertained…I never imagined that pulling at it, would unravel a path that would ask me to completely redefine who, or more precisely, what God is.

But I did. And I was only able to do so, by reason. Because let’s face it, There is absolutely nothing reasonable about a God that can create the universe, but somehow has a problem with an unclean woman, menstruating. Or a a divine entity that says do not kill, yet orders the rape pillage & mass genocide, of those who do not obey his commands.

Trust me when I say, love does NOT conquer all. Ignorance does. The gospel message of love is just a candy coating on a diabolical system of mental enslavement. It reduces humans to sheep, who chase the unseen, based on rumors of the dead. So yeah, need less to say -that did not work for me at all, in the long term.

Finally, after immense consideration & reflection, I have found what I was looking for. However most would be unable to handle the rigid and unbending truth of it. I was though, because it turned out to be so damn logical. An unwavering!

The true expression of God, does not resemble what we are taught in Sunday school , regardless of our religious, or spiritual inclinations. It has been hidden in plain sight, since before mankind ever walked the Earth. However, it is only through reason & logic, that we can access  the greater truth of this divine design. While words like omnipresent & omniscient certainly apply, so do the words, cold & calculating.

While I would love to tell you what I have learned, it is far too complicated in it’s simplicity for most folks to understand, much less embrace. At the end of the day, you must discover these things for yourself. Although…I will provide you with the same clue I was “given” as a teenager. This instantaneous thought, would turn out to be invaluable. Because when I finally arrived at the bottom line, it was woven throughout the foundation.

“I am but one equation, in an infinite expression, some call “god”.

The truth does set you free. But it is quite alarming at first, for those who have not been properly prepared. That is why, these things take time to reveal themselves to us.  Even if I wanted to, I could not get you from where you’re at right now, to my line of thinking in one post or pre-recorded talking points. It is so completely opposite of anything we’ve ever heard, that it’s very difficult to get our heads around it, even if it was handed to us on a silver platter. And quite frankly, most folks, would categorically reject it anyway, even though it has been proven, beyond any shadow of doubt.

I invite everyone reading this, to examine their belief system rationally. Be willing to   explore the nagging voice within, that you have ignored. Allow these uncomfortable doubts, to gently guide you towards the harsh Light of reality & the unchanging nature of the Truth~

HaPpy Trails guys!!

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I invite you all to deeply consider Our Globalist Agenda. We are going to have to make choices, about the evolutionary direction of humanity~

https://illuminati.am/globalist-agenda/

#TeamIlluminati #LightLed

Follow the Leader?

Posted: November 11, 2017 in Illuminatiam, Leadership
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*This was written for the Illuminati Members Portal. It is solid regardless of situation.

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This whole ‘insistence’ that we ALL be leaders, is just too much. Most folks have zero desire, to take on the stress & responsibility that comes with leadership. I never liked all that myself! Most folks really would rather just help without the headaches.
I worry for the baby Initiates, that have zero desire to lead & who might be feeling like they aren’t fitting in, because of this. I worry they will feel as if, there is no place in this movement for them, if they are not yet the leader they would like to become. It concerns me that some of you, are becoming discouraged by the pressures around here, so I thought I should speak
Truth is, we ALL have a place in the Universal Design. It takes every single one of us, to make ENORMOUS things happen. And we ARE going on to ENORMOUS things my friends.
To those of you, who have chosen me as your “leader”. I will serve you with all my heart. I am going to need you guys, to help me spread the Light & so much more, as we enter into Phase 2 of our vision. I cannot do this alone & I am grateful to all of you, who have come behind the scenes to support me!
It is perfectly ok to follow!! As long as you follow someone or something, that is in possession of the Light. I follow the Illuminati! I follow the Light too. I both follow and lead. Most of us naturally do both.
There will be others to follow around here, as new leaders emerge. So if I am not your style, someone else will be.
But DO NOT fall into, the false belief that you are any less valuable, than any of the rest of us. That would be a lie from the pit of hell Yo’s!!
Anyway. I hope this comes as a relief, to those of you who were feel “less than” around here~

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I helps folks find & follow the Light~

Hell or High Water~

Posted: November 9, 2017 in Illuminatiam, Light, Loyalty
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I  did not get to where I’m at, by accident.

In fact, I came to The Illuminati by following the Light. I followed it straight up to the base of this pyramid, without hesitation. Because, you know…

(((Light attracts Light)))

However, just before meeting IAM for a myriad of reasons, I had come to a place of no vision.

Zero.

Literally.

Stop Signs were everywhere! It wasn’t caused by darkness. And I wasn’t blind. I simply could not “see” my future, in the direction I was heading at the time. I was stagnant & stuck.

The Illuminati, has radically 180’d me off dead end roads, in every possible way. And not without pain either. The process of burning down a life, so a new one can emerge from it’s ashes, is so far beyond uncomfortable; it’s actually maddening.

Yet, I was so fundamentally in need of another resurrection, I welcomed the refinement fires.

The clarity and vision I am experiencing now, has not come instantly  on a sterling silver platter. It continues to unfold organically, as I keep my eyes on the road I now find myself traveling on.

As it turns out, there is an auto-pilot feature called an ‘internal compass’! I just need to listen to it’s directions, stay in my lane & move forward!

Simple.

Now that I can finally ‘see’ where I am going… I am completely driven to play my unique part in the Universal Design, with enthusiasm & flair!!

Come hell or high water, actually~

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Say what? I know. I KNOW! Just listen~

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My First Monument ~

Posted: September 11, 2017 in Crowns, Illuminatiam, Love, Nature, Quotes, WORD!

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Can you even believe this? My friend @IAMColorsmith did this for me! It is one of my favorite sayings. It is painfully true for me. Blazing trails, is often a lonely path.

Colorsmith took it to Grand Haven, Michigan for me. He left it out in the wild for the perfect passerby! I am hoping the person who needs to hear this bitter reminder the most, finds it & takes it home with them. It is an affirmation, that crowns indeed have thorns.

This kind of giving blows me away!

It’s a gift that keeps on giving…the most precious kind. It is actually a monument to the heart of the giver, rather than she who receives it~

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So…what does it mean exactly,  to follow the Light? This is what I know so far.

In a literal sense, Light is the natural agent that stimulates sight & makes things visible. However there is a secondary meaning, one that has a spiritual application.

The concept of a spiritual Light is not a new one. If you are a follower of Christ, in the truest sense, you already have an idea about that which I speak.  If you believe in God, you are halfway there. This Divine Light,  is a trump card over any gods or goddesses and ALL perceived voids.

Where ever Light shines, we can see what otherwise roars in the darkness; hidden. This is particularly true of that which lies deep within our souls. Hidden bad attitudes, hurts and confusion, when brought to the Light can be reduced to better attitudes, healing and clarity. The beauty of this Light is… it IS a natural agent… so really no one is immune to its influence completely, because WE ARE the Light!

Sadly though. Too many folks have spiritual sunglasses on! Thus dimming the available Light to their spirits. You can think of it as being spiritually starved.

People have to be willing to carry a candle into the darkest places of their own hearts, in order to gain true illumination. Most are unwilling to walk through their own personal hells. They go for the flight or fight method, rather than looking honestly at who they are and what they are bringing to our collective table.

I know this is true, because I lived it. I spent far more effort trying to outrun my ‘demons’, than it took to actually stand and slay them. It is all too easy to deny our shortcomings, poor decisions or unexpected traumas and stuff them away from the light of day. Our cultures provides tons of distractions if you are not into self exploration. So the average human, will never change. Think leopards, spots and what-not. All of which is rooted in fear.

However, there is a group of humans who actually welcome illumination. I have met a bunch of them here: http://www.illuminati.am. There are those of us who actively work on our ‘inner man’ in an effort to create a better version of ourselves. There are those that actually learn from their mistakes and seek improvement & personal growth, as a way of life. Basically, we own our own shit and clean up after our own messes. Kindergarten stuff, that makes a WORLD of difference over time…Not just for us, but for you!

Enlightened people sparkle & glow. They feel good to be around. But they can & will hold a candle up to your crap. It is natural. They can’t help it. They will expose the darkness in you without trying…often without even speaking. Light just does what Light does. It illuminates!

There is a growing, albeit ancient, movement to follow this Light into a paradigm shift. ALL are called to participate in the process, but very few choose to answer. To be “chosen” simply means, YOU have chosen to trust in & surrender to, the divine’s expansive & evolving master plan. Because there is absolutely no shame in admitting… life is decidedly less treacherous with an enlightened tour guide!

Michael Jackson said it better than anyone when he wrote: “If you want to make the world a better place, take a look in the mirror and make the change” !

I have personally chosen to follow this brilliant, creative & loving Light into eternity. Where-ever it shines, you will find part of me there~

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