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Trees are Talkative~

Posted: June 12, 2019 in Nature

I miss this gal. She was camped right outside my deck for 7 years in a former home I occupied. She would chat me up from time to time, and I thought perhaps I had lost my mind. She even told me her name on a few occasions, but I could never remember it. It wasn’t a common name to recall. I remember it started with an A, like Ariella or something beautiful like that.


She told me something once that I have never forgotten. It haunts me every fire season as a result. It was something I had not considered before she mentioned it. She described to me the sheer panic and despair trees feel when a fire is coming for them. And I do mean them, as they are connected at their roots. Imagine the terror, of seeing death come for you like that!


She had a sense of humor, if you can believe that. She told me once that it was trees themselves who started the wind, not the sun telling them to do so. I laughed, thinking she was pulling my tail. But I often wonder. I do not recall catching her in a lie. So there’s that.


I felt safe around her, like she was always watching out for me. When the trimmers would come, I would be as upset as she was. One such trim was so extreme, we were both extremely upset by it. She did not mind an occasional “hair cut”, but this would have been akin to having you hair chopped off far shorter than you like it to be. It took us awhile to get past that.


I went to see her recently. I missed her like you wouldn’t believe. I needed to get pictures of her again. I had lost the ones I had taken before. I feel like I can connect to her telepathically, and looking at her image helps. I know it seems ridiculous that I would have had a friendship with a tree, but I did and do. She would wave at me when everything else was still. I knew what was happening to us was real, because of it. It would be dead calm and I would ask her to move, and she would. Makes me think trees really do create the winds…

As many of you are aware, I have a tattoo of  ‘The Mark ‘ on my right wrist that I got when Jewel Torres came to visit me in Phoenix, in Jan 2018. Having both spent far too much time in the church, we loved the delicious irony of the name of our tattoos, as well as the placement. (The Mark on our Wrists) We loved that we got them, but we were certain our artist was fresh out of school, given the obvious imperfections in his work. But we loved them, and we loved getting them done; together.






Side by Side

Over time, mine showed signs of micro scarring, (blank spots where the ink did not take properly), which was not nearly as bothersome to me, as the iris being off center. The two things combined, really bugged me. So today, I decided to do something about it, and went into a tattoo shop by my house to inquire about having it fixed.

Having found myself feeling extremely confident in the artist I consulted with, I sat down on the spot -to let Issac make the adjustments we spoke about. In the course of our conversation, trigger words and mantras, like integrity, critical thinking, don’t ever give up, keep going no matter what, flew between us as naturally as if they had been divinely scripted.

Eventually of course, the conversation turned to The Illuminati, due to the symbolism of The Mark itself.  We were shocked to discover that he had only a few days before, downloaded a copy of The Eternal Oath he hadn’t signed yet!  Although I bet he will tonight, Lol I mean… what are the freak odds Issac!?


Anyway, I was able to share more information about the outreach, and tell him about my book, and he in turn shared a brief version of his life from prison to his present understanding. I was so excited, because I know IAM digs it when folks crawl out of the ditch, and climb over their dominos! I knew they would want to watch This guy closer!

It was all very surreal to meet a brother out of nowhere, and being able to invite him to join us; personally. He is everything IAM looks for in a human, and it was amazing watching his eyes Light up, as he became more animated in  sharing his journey with me. There was no doubt for either of us, I was there by “appointment”, even though I was a walk in!

I am really just so blown away, I am having a hard time articulating myself. But it sure makes sense now, why I was drawn to this particular shop! I always glanced towards it on my way home.


As you can see, he did an incredible job of reviving my Mark. I freaking love how he not only fixed it, but made it FABULOUS! He even used some white outlining, to make it pOp! This is it under the protective coating designed to aid healing.  I will add more images to this little shout out, once it heals and I get back over there to grab a photo of us together. Suffice to say, it was an incredible experiences getting my tat rehabbed today~

Here are Issac’s deets, if you happen to live in the Phoenix Metro area~







Pass the Parables~

Posted: June 6, 2019 in Spirituality



While there was ample reason to do so before, the time for hiding our soul food in Parables, has past.

Humanity is now conscious enough to comprehend spiritually nutritious things, and “the church” cannot stop us from consuming, and contemplating the truth any longer.

I do my level best, to bring things to you in a way that is easy to digest, for those who are ready to move past milk, and into the meat of their spiritual supper.

As an Evangelight, it is my job to feed your soul. As a Light seeker, it is your job to sit at many tables~



My 2 V’s~

Posted: June 6, 2019 in Alchemy, Spirituality, Wisdom
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There is no question in my mind, there are two V’s within me. And they can be competitive af, when left to their own devices.  They both see things very differently, and neither are hesitant to chime in. I used to think maybe something was wrong with me, until I realized that this devil on one shoulder, and an angel on the other, was a thing others have noticed too. Countless cartoons and conversations over my lifetime, have validated, this shared human condition.

One of these gals who resides within me, comes off like a sarcastic bitch. She is the one with all the spice. She is your Mum, on crack. It is she who can be condescending, and perhaps perceived as ruthless. She is domineering and aggressive.  But she is also fearless. It is she who defends and protects the ecosystem known as V.  Without her, the other gal within me, would just erode under the weight of her own empathetic tears. That version is far too sensitive and kind-hearted, to get along with out spicy V.  There are way too many experiences in life,  where those traits would be walked all over, to not have lioness V, watching out for the pussycat. When these two distinct aspects of self are combined, harmony and balance occur… and a third thing emerges.

This my friends, is spiritual alchemy.

This is the Light mastering the darkness within, and teaching it to use its ‘so called’ negative force, for positive things. This is the intersection by where a third party is born. When we have recognized the two within us, and we have taught them to unify, and work together as one one,  we have given birth to the perfected version of ourselves. And while keeping these guys on the same page can be a true challenge at times, it is well worth the effort. It is this mastery, that turns good men*, into great ones~


*Term used loosely.

Judge this!!

Posted: June 4, 2019 in Beliefs, Judgement
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Oh how I hate it when folks just attach meanings to words; willy-nilly!

I mean, why in the hell have a freaking dictionary, if we aren’t going to honor the agreed upon definitions, and just make the shit up as we go. As a wordsmith, I truly loathe it when folks (including myself) go off half cocked, and use the wrong words to describe something. What’s worse is, I see writers, and those with so called educations doing this far to often. It must make those who come here having learned English elsewhere, crazy. I wonder is this a uniquely American thing to do? Or has the whole world been taken in by a subjective linguistic reality that bears no resemblance, to what has been determined long ago. Seriously, is there a ongoing attempt to throw a walkies-talkie into the already complicated challenge of effective communication?? No wonder we are collectively at each other’s throats. One man’s judgement is another man’s condemnation!

Let me show you what I mean, and maybe you will be convinced to share my point of view with me. I found this on Twitter. It was written by a well known author, I have never heard of. I have nothing against this gal at all, I am actually grateful for her. So this is not personal in any way. This is just me being inspired to share my opinion, because she gave me the words that serve as a perfect example, of what I am talking about. I am of the opinion that writers should work overtime at the selecting the proper words in which to convey their ideas, thoughts or prose. Otherwise, we cannot really ever get on the same page as them.

At first glance, one might think this a beautiful sentiment. But let’s look deeper.




She claims that there is a big difference between judging and discernment. But is there? Let’s have a look at the actual definitions of each word. It is rather enlightening. As you can see, discernment is a synonym for judgement. For those of you who have forgotten what a synonym is, it means these two words can be used interchangeably. They mean exactly, or nearly the exact same thing. An example of this would be: shut and close. Two different words, same meaning.




In an effort to ridicule the word judgement as coming from a place of ‘ego’, she has inadvertently chose a word that means the same thing, except you are actually better at judging, if you can use discernment! What’s more, folks don’t realize just how Christianity has crept into our everyday language, and reworked our words, to suit. Because a Christian is NEVER to judge, (only the creator of the planet can do that), they have graciously provided another way to say the same thing, resulting in something akin to linguistics on crack. Because the subtle message here is, Christians are better at judging, because you know; “God”.


Are we to really believe that the heart is a better judge than our heads? That feelings outrank logic? That logic is ego based? Because that makes zero sense to me! We have a heart, AND a head -which seems freaking intentional to me. Never mind it being a clue indicating this isn’t an either OR gig. Both are necessary to make decisions, and choices for ourselves. One should never eclipse the other. Both should be employed. Given her point of view is heavy laden with new age semantics, she doesn’t even see the root of her ideas have been determined by the Church. Something I find deliciously, ironic. But she isn’t alone. The entire cult of the “new age” does the same thing. It is just repackaged rhetoric for sale, It’s target audience is those attempting to flee the oppression, of thought restrictive religion. If you do not think they are of the same ilk, try inserting logic into a conversation held by their masses. You will be met with the same aggressive resistance that church folk used on the profane, back in the day. But I digress….MOOoooo…

If you have read my other article on the subject of judgment, you should quickly discover that people needn’t fear it. Even the Bible authors didn’t seem to understand the difference between judgment and condemnation. Or perhaps the linguistic scholars that did the translations, did not. Either way, they obviously still thought of a tornado, as God’s way of saying, ‘fuck you’ and the village you live in. Oh wait, he would never have said it like THAT! He surely would have said ‘screw you’, instead!

Listen, Beacons. Let me put this as simply as I can. We are going into the age of Light now. Light is reasonable. It is logical. It is not a jealous god born as a man, who identifies as a unicorn, and is attracted to Aliens who look like light bulbs, Ok. So, PLEASE use your heads AND follow your heart. The best path for you, can be found where the two intersect,  and are in alignment.

Always consult both. Oh, and consult your dictionary once in awhile, too~

The Key to Forgiveness~

Posted: May 10, 2019 in Forgiveness

We all know forgiveness is important, it has been preached from every pulpit.

However I am going to bump that up a notch, and say it is absolutely essential, if you are on a path towards enlightenment. It is impossible to hold the kind of vibration that elevates one beyond the mundane, without literally lightening our loads, energetically.

Those who know me personally, know I would not have survived my challenging life, had I not moved into forgiveness, and cleared the clouds that hovered over me long after those that wounded me, moved on. I would not have been able to survive having been kidnapped, raped, tortured or abused without forgiveness’s liberating effects on my soul -much less become victorious over them. I would have remained a prisoner to the very things in my life, which sought to destroy me.

Be it unintentional or premeditated, people and/or situations can leave deep cuts in our hearts that can take decades to heal, even if we are actively working on forgiveness. Some things just take longer to heal, due to the nature of the trauma. While others, which are relatively minor offenses, still fall into the grooves left by the deeper slices and amplify them.

I have learned I am an incredibly sensitive person, despite the hard candy shell that surrounds my soul. So the things that would roll off another persons back, sticks to my feathers and threatens my flight if I allow them to build up. I am ever vigilant to preen the sticky droplets of harm, however some of them trickle in, far deeper than I can feel on the surface of my shell. Adding more insulting salt, to my existing injuries.

Recently, it was revealed to me, that I had hardened my heart due to an abscess of pus filled pain that went undetected, even after I worked so hard to clean up the area over the years. Not only did I face horrific slander, lies, and harassment by those claiming to follow the same ideals I do, it tapped into the heart of a child who was eclipsed by the needs of a sibling, the teenage girl who as a virgin, was rumored to be a slut, the misunderstood adult, that never truly fit in. It reopened old wounds that were not yet healed enough, to sustain another similar attack. The tender scars pierced far too easily with repeated vicious stabs meant to draw blood. Instead, the slices merely revealed the resentment that still lived just below the surface, with tentacles to the abscess of unresolved conflict. The experience had punctured through to the infection that was festering in the darkness, begging to see the light of day, so I could finally heal -once and for all.   An absolutely HELLACIOUS experience to be sure. But one I am exceedingly grateful for, as it allowed me the opportunity to pull at the root that had tethered me to a vibration I desperately needed to get free from, to advance. A dull ache that permeated everything about me, now that I could actually see the twisted and poisonous cables, it created around my soul.

It would take me almost a full year of screaming to the moon in fits of rage akin the the death throes of a dying animal, to give expression to pain that was previously sucked down, and hidden. My guttural screaming was always followed by a trillion tears over flowing into the painful cracks, and down into the septic areas to be cleansed and restored. I cannot even tell you guys, what a gut wrenching process this was. I hurt like hell! Instead of following my own advice that would have led to a quicker path out of the hell I found myself in, I ruminated and relived my injuries, essentially enshrining my enslavement to them. Instead of severing them with the only healing salve that can cure, forgiveness.

Finally, after months of torment, I reached the end of myself. It was then that providence (surely sick of seeing me suffer) stepped in, and threw me the key to my release from my anguish in the form of a family member, I will call “J”. After empathizing with my situation, she reminded me how important empathy was in overcoming my natural defenses. In the wake of her encouragement, I knew if I could find empathy again, forgiveness would surely follow. And it certainly did.

Empathy was the key I needed, to unlock forgiveness.

Forgiveness comes far easier with random hit and run attacks, than it does with ongoing injury. So many of us face something similar to what I just described, because the pain is ever present and is coming from a loved one we cannot avoid. Perhaps I can encourage you guys to develop empathy too, as it is the precursor to forgiveness, and the key to our release from the bondage it creates in us. Without forgiveness, we remained tethered to a vibration that is not only impeding our spiritual growth, it aids and abets the darkness within us. Thus crippling our journey towards the Light.

To empathize is to identify with someones journey.  It is the act of truly understanding where someone is coming from, and seeing the similarities in our own experience. It is about realizing that this similarity resides in the things that connect us to one another. It is about discovering that the pain someone has caused us, comes from the pain that they carry that was caused by someone else. It is a chain reaction that binds us all, to the same chains we all need to get free from. Once we fully grasp this shared bondage, our sympathy will lead us to the balm of forgiveness. In forgiveness, we purge the impurity and disease of passed around pain.

We are taught forgiveness is for us, and not those who caused us to grief. Yet I assert that energetically, it is for us all. As each one of us is released from the darkness of emotional agony, it brings us all UP into the liberating and healing Light, by way of example. An example that is energetically contagious when we share our stories of release, to encourage someone else to forgive too. Thus changing the world, when we have truly, and forever changed ourselves.

Because after all…we are all one, are we not?







rainbow road

I am often asked what someone should do while they wait to learn the results of their prerequisites. I hate having to answer this question, because it shows right away they have not read ILLUMINATIAM, The First Testament of the Illuminati. Something I just cannot fathom, if you have chosen this path.

For the life of me, I cannot understand why someone would follow an organization or ideology, and not actually read everything they have published about it, to date. It is akin to claiming to be a Christian, and never reading the Bible. It is not only lazy, it demonstrates to me immediately that person prefers their ignorance, and is currently not a leader. You guys need to understand that leaders do not beg for the crumbs of others, only sheep do that. Lions such as myself, hunt down their own food, and thrive because we are well fed by our own efforts. If you think The Illuminati is unaware of your choice to remain ignorant, you are sadly mistaken. They are looking for leaders, not the lazy.

To put this in a way that most of you will understand, I have learned everything I know through The Illuminati’s publicly released messages. At this time, I do not have have access to anything different that anyone else does. So I find it unsettling that so many claim they want to be a part of this organization, and yet know zero about it. Even though they can find everything they need to know, online. Even their book can be purchased for only .99 cents in digital form on Amazon. 

The Illuminati has made everything easily accessible for all. For me, there are no excuses for not doing the necessary research to learn more, unless you are living in a country who has blocked every link IAM has. And even if this is the case, you all seem to have access to Facebook, and there are a myriad of groups there that are geared towards helping those with access issues. Never mind my online radio station, that has literally everything ever printed by the IAM, in audio form there.

If you want to know what I personally think you should do while you wait on IAM, beyond what has been shared by them in their book, here it is:






Link to The Illuminati online

Link to iMARK Radio



My Glorious Ego~

Posted: April 18, 2019 in Ego, Wisdom
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If I hear one more new age guru tell me to kill my ego, I am going to scream so loud, California will fall into the ocean due to the sheer vibration of it!!

  1. a person’s sense of self-esteem or self-importance.
    “a boost to my ego”
    synonyms: self-esteem, self-importance, self-worth, self-respect, self-conceit, self-image, self-confidence;

    amour propre
    “he needed a boost to his ego”
    • Psychoanalysis
      the part of the mind that mediates between the conscious and the unconscious and is responsible for reality testing and a sense of personal identity.
    • Philosophy
      (in metaphysics) a conscious thinking subject.

Who in the hell started the movement to suppress the internal mediator between  our conscious reality, and the unseen realm of our hidden consciousness?

No seriously, who’s bright idea was that?!

Anyone with the most scant ability to think critically, can see there are valuable aspects of the ego just by reading the agreed upon definition. Addressing an ego out of balance is one thing, but crucifying that which carried me through the darkest periods of my life is another; entirely! While I certainly think we need to keep our egos from running rough shod over another sweet spirit, preaching we should ditch it all together, is waaaay out of balance in my egotistical opinion.


I have a healthy respect, and admiration for my glorious ego. It was my ego who gave me the courage to face another day, when I was metaphorically in the ditch and bleeding out. It was my ego who got me out of bed, and raised my head enough to get through the darkest days of my life. It was my ego, who told me I had value, when the rest of the world had none, for a rarefied thinker such as myself. It was my ego who pulled me through depression, gave me confidence when I really didn’t have any, and told me I was as good as anyone else, even when I did not feel that way. I am profoundly grateful for this incredible mediator between me, and my higher self. between me and the things buried within me. Between me, and my divinity. Without a healthy ego, I would be incredibly unhealthy, and still bleeding in a ditch somewhere, unable to face another day upright, and taking nourishment.

It truly jangles my nerves when folks ask me to cast her aside, even for a moment! It isn’t like she is in my face every second of the day, anyway.  Nor does she go around lording her self importance in an effort to belittle others.  I have zero interest in losing myself in the ALL right now. I am here to experience my individuality, and to express it through my one of a kind, unduplicated personality! Oneness is my/our natural, and eternal state apart from the body, and I am here to see what I AM separately but in context of the whole, or I would not be here at all. None of us would be. It is almost as if, folks have forgotten this. I get it, we all miss that divine state in which we are part of something bigger than ourselves, but that is our base, and we WILL return to it, once we are done doing Earth stuff. So it seems ridiculous to me, to actively seek it while we are here to experience something else. It seems to me, we should keep our egos in check, not kill them.

I have actually had an independent experience of the ALL from literally out of no where, while I was freaking driving no less. So I know intimately what it is that I AM, outside of this temporary meat suit. 

Oh, and PS, it’s AWEsome!

And guess what boys and girls, I did not lose my sense of self, even as I was completely one with the total of what we all are. I am not sure if anyone will understand this, but it is -how it is.

Be that as it may, it’s also an unsustainable state of being while we are occupying a body.  I mean, maybe folks need to be reminded of who, and what they are, so that is why they seek such an experience in meditation, and hallucinogenics? But I am not one of them. I know I am something more that skin and bones. I know I am a monadic soul full of divine sunshine and spirited moxie. I have always known, even when I had no way to articulate it to even myself, much less others.

I think we all do at some level.

Or we certainly could, if we would but listen to our EGOs once in awhile!! I mean, it IS in direct communication with ALL levels of our consciousness, after all!!





Stop trying to kill your ego!

There is a positive & negative charge in all things. IE) Healthy self esteem GOOD, competitive conceit -not so much~


Just Ask!

Posted: April 11, 2019 in ?

I am looking for inspiration for V’s Vox on iMARK.

If you have a burning question about anything, I would like to try and answer it for you.

The best inquiries will be recorded and possibly included in one of my books.

Please leave your questions below.



If you have ever been a part of Council 22’s history, I would love for you to chime in here. I am currently finishing up my next book titled:

Initiate of the Illuminati


From the perspective of history’s 1st verified Level 1.1 Initiate

It is a tell-all from my personal experience, but I am wanting to include some snippets from other Initiates in the chapter dedicated to the Council. I am specifically looking for comments, quotes or experiences from the point of view of those who actually participated in c22, and would like to share their perspective. Anything that will add to the historical record, is encouraged as well.

This is your chance to add to our Initiate history!

Please leave your contribution here, or send it to to be considered for inclusion. Also include the name you would like used when quoting you. You deadline to do so, is April 22nd 2019.


Invited to Rank?


I never really gave it much thought.

Not serious thought anyway.

I don’t believe for a minute I would ever be invited to rank. Surely that is an honor reserved for the best and brightest on this planet. Unlike the clamoring masses at the base of IAMs pyramid, I do not see myself on par with whoever has already made it into this exclusive club. Since I do not see myself as one of them, I really haven’t given the possibility, any real thought. So yeah, I really did not let my mind go there. I mean, why would I?

 I recently turned 58. It took me 2 years and 8 months to reach Level 1.1. If there were only 3 Levels, with 3 sub levels, it would still take approx 27 years, before I would get though all the Citizen Member Initiate Levels!  In other words, I would be 78 years old. Hardly a probable option for a group who was rumored to have once said, they didn’t trust anyone over 30!

Be all that as it may,  a brother-friend recently asked me, what I would say to The Illuminati, if they were to ask me to join their ranks. Let me tell ya. I ignored him the first time he asked. But he asked again. And even though I did not answer him the second time either, it really got me thinking. I needed an answer to that question for myself. Just in case. Given that I have been pissy-pot-pie, spitting nails mad and considering a break-up with IAM for about 6 months at the time he asked,  it really kinda jerked me up short and caused me to do some SERIOUS soul searching. Could I be obediently “lifetime-loyal” to a group I have no full understanding of, and who’s ways have flat out pissed me off at times? I certainly have been loyal to lesser men. HA! Plus, I managed to remained loyal, even in anger, so MAYBE? I mean, I don’t know??!! These guys know EVERYTHING about me and I know ZIP about them! Talk about an uneven playing field. 

But we ain’t playin’.

And this is NO game, is it…?

The more I thought about, the more consequential this question became for me.

What would I do?

No really…

What will you do V?!

Since I do not anticipate being asked, I was finding it hard to even image. I had to sit with it for several days, before I came close to anything resembling an answer. It honestly took awhile to get my head in that game enough to visualize someone coming to my door with an invitation, or whatever they do. I am not sure if that is what they do, but a call would seem distant and surreal, so in my mind they would have to show their faces for me to believe it was real. I truly could not imagine any of that.

I grappled with bringing such an fantasy to life. So much so, I was reminded about how stagnant my line of thinking had become, prior to having met IAM. I literally had zero vision for my future at the time. If someone had said I had won $10,000 to plan the vacation of a lifetime, I would not have any idea what-so-ever where to go. I could not even dream about taking a luxurious vacation much less imagine myself as someone the mysterious, and merited Illuminati would find any value in.

However, I needed to know what I would choose in advance; just in case.

The first thing that occurred to me when considering the possibility was… Do I trust these faceless, unknown strangers enough, to sign an eternally binding oath of obedience? An oath I could never renounce.  A forever and ever AMEN, Oath?!!

Let’s face it, that trumps marital vows exponentially. Now I don’t know about you dear Beacons, but trust is a pivotal aspect of any relationship in my world. Signing a lifelong oath of loyalty, is akin to getting married only more binding, by far. Needless to say, there is no way I could take this question as lightly as I did my choices in marriage. I was really struggling to find a way to say YES to folks I know little to nothing about. At the time, a enthusiastic ‘yes’ would just not come in for a landing. Trust me when I say there is another draft of this article that has an entirely different ending, and it was written first.

It just doesn’t seem prudent to consider jumping into bed with people I do not know. And yet, there is a kind of ‘knowing’ I have with these guys which I cannot necessarily articulate. I ‘knew’ their voice the minute they called, so can I really say they are strangers to me? Not really. No. There is a familiarity I cannot explain, but exists none the less. There really was a knowing inside of me, to balance out the unknown, which at the end of the day actually provided the answer I sought. I went with my gut, because there isn’t enough data to go full on logical.

When I try to imagine who The Illuminati might be in real life, I think of those that are listed in the Billionaire Giving Pledge (see After all, mention of these remarkable humans come under the heading of “About Us” on IAMs official site. Surely there are those who have taken the pledge that are truly Illuminati? If you take the time to read their individual responses to Bill and Melinda Gate’s invitation to participate, you might get the same goosebumps as I do. These folks are FANTASTIC! Far more fabulous that I for sure. That level of giving definitely says Humanitarian, for sure!!

That is my measure.


To be clear, it’s already my great pleasure to support The Illuminati as is. EVEN if I am not deemed fit to dine at their tables. I will enthusiastically serve them, regardless! I do not expect these brilliant humans, would care to dine with the likes of me. I know I am an acquired taste even if I am a ‘nobody’, in every sense of the word. I cannot imagine the elite of this planet needing anything from a mouthy, spiritually driven, emotive gal, such as myself. Plus I am not sure I am intelligent enough, although I do believe I possess the level of integrity the seek. Although I would add a considerable amount of color and perhaps a little comedy to the group -that you can be sure of!

But back to the question at hand, what would I actually say, if I was approached to join the ranks of the Lights most elite, intelligent, and philanthropic humans on the planet? Truthfully, I would likely CRY like a little girl first! Or be too flabbergasted to even speak. Once the initial shock wore off though, I would respond by saying I have a few questions first. Then I would probably need to sleep on it.


I couldn’t sleep!!

I think I would just need some time with it, alone. This of course, is assuming they did not already anticipate my questions and/or concerns, and alleviate them from word go. Although I am completely content and fulfilled to be a Community Leader in their public outreach, it would absolutely be an honor to serve them more deeply, in anyway they need me to. For as long as they deem me worthy, to do so.

So, all that being said, and assuming of course, you guys are not the Archons…

My reply would be a diamond hard MAYBE IAM!



What would your answer be dear Beacons? I would LOVE to hear what you are thinking! Please be advised, your answers could end up in my next book~

I’ve been really sick.


I was really sick & tired for about 6 months.


When I quit smoking, it sent me straight to Hell and into Hypothyroidism that went unchecked for 3 months. As a result, I gained 5 pounds a week for 8 weeks in a row, pouring a swift and staggering 40lbs onto my petite frame. Far more than the standard 10 lbs one can expect, from the slow down to the system that smoking cessation typically creates. It was the freaking WORST!!

I was miserable!

And I do mean MISERABLE, in every possible way!!

Not only did I suffer the worst that Hypothyroidism could throw at me: Puffy face, extreme fatigue, hoarseness, muscle weakness, heart palpitations, shortness of breath, zero concentration, weight gain, more hair loss, and some bonus depression. I had to deal with the withdrawals from smoking, on top of all that! It threw me into a radical, personal pole shift, no doubt about it. There was so much going on with my body that I had no control over, I was a veritable stranger in my own skin. I hated every other ounce that had found it’s way into every area of my body. I was an emotional shipwreck, washed up onto territory that was completely foreign to me.  I had no idea what to do with myself, besides consult a physician and possibly a psychiatrist. I was all but lost, without my 40 year constant companion, who could always calm me down.


I was afraid that was my new normal.

My body hurt everywhere but especially my legs and my hands. I felt like a balloon that had been blown up too quickly, just shy of the popping point. I felt like I was as full as one could possibly be, without actually exploding. Carrying this new weight HURT! I was too damn tired to carry it, too! It hurt physically like I would never have imagined, but also it hurt me mentally too. It really threw me to the ground in a way nothing had before. I thought, WOW… IAM really found me weak point now, good for them!


I was not a gal that ever really worried about how she looked, and certainly not my weight, so this was very left field for me. But with the world potentially watching me turn into Violet Beauregarde from Willy Wonka, my pain was magnified by raw embarrassment and the idea that my enemies would actually delight in my suffering. 

I found myself facing all the fears, every human who does not feel perfect, faces. This fear was tangible, and quite the heavy low down. I suddenly felt a monumental heaviness for every overweight person on the planet, who felt they did not measure up to the impossible standards, of a freaking hanger. I developed sympatico for the kind of worries only high profile folks are subject to that I previously had no understanding of.  It is bad enough having to hit a low cycle in your life, it is exponentially more horrific doing so, while god and everyone is watching. I felt for every single one of us, and it made me cry.

A lot.

I am not going to lie, there were times that I wished with all my heart, I would just go to sleep and not wake up, so I could avoid the ongoing humiliation and the colossal amount of work that lay ahead. I absolutely did not want to face what I needed to, to get past this hurdle. I did not want to do this!! I was pissy-pot-pie on pep pills. I was dragging my tail behind me like a 800 lb leash. I was spitting nails angry that I would have to undo, what never should have occurred to begin with -had my doctor been a better advocate for my health. I knew the only way to get through this terrible turn of events, was going to require a whole bunch of effort on my part to fix.  I cannot even describe how pissed off I was about it.  Brad can though. He knows. He was my primary higher witness. He was the one I reached out to for the most part, although Papa and Christine were there for me also.

I called Brad a lot, so he caught the brunt of my furious rage. I called him crying, screaming, ranting, whimpering and too angry to speak. I called him just about every single day for months, working myself into lather almost every time I did.  He witnessed my death throes and I promise you, it wasn’t pretty. I had no way to dial myself down without a cigarette! I was screaming to the moon without a safety harness. I am convinced Brad must have put me on mute to get through the bulk of it. The endless repetition would have driven me crazy, but Brad took it like, he was actually paid to deal with me. No really. That is exactly how I would describe it. He really was a rock, on the other side of my hard place. I was frozen in my angst for months, before I was able to get moving again. My anger had eclipsed everything in my life, and I had become a shadow unto myself. 

The most horrific part of this for me was, dealing with the mirror. The one staring back at me was “Consumption V”, the version of myself who drank far to much to avoid her pain. I buried her almost 11 years ago, and here she was again, bloated and ready to gloat. It was incredibly hard to face her. I did not get sober and quit killing myself slowly, to face HER again!! Her very presence added insult to injury, and damn near pushed me, over the edge of myself. 

I was absolutely distraught.


Literally everything I knew how to do to move pass this, I ignored. I was obsessively hanging black crepe, in an effort to hide the terrible truth. The terrible truth was, there was no short cut! There was no easy fix. There was no savior on their way to magically fat burn me down and spit me out fabulous! I was ultimately going to have to move all the way through this alone, and it was going to take a tremendous amount of effort on my part, to do so. 


After a couple of professional examinations of my heart, and lungs, I got off my fat arse and started moving. It was my second attempt to do so. I had started with the gym the moment I became a non-smoker, but had to pause until my doc could figure out what was going on with my body. When I first started “Striding” (a combo of running, walking & occasionally some interpretive dance) I was so freaking out of shape, I could barely move myself at all. I felt like I was carrying 600 lbs of cement on top of my 800lb tail. It was such a drag! Quite literally. I was glad I had all the tests for my heart first, because it felt like I was having a heart attack every time I worked it out, for the first couple of weeks. I could not even believe how out of shape I was overall, having not been in a gym for 2 decades. I promise you when I say, there are a couple of smokers in my neighborhood that know I bawled my way through, many of my strides!

I hated every minute of the first several weeks of it.

I did not lose weight.


I was the biggest baby you have ever seen, and Brad heard it all. He would do everything he could, to intuitively diagnosis what ailed me, no doubt hoping my angst would end soon. It was he (and my mum) who suggested the thyroid was out of whack, when all my other tests were coming back normal.  I really am grateful to him for his time and efforts! He went to heroics for me, he really did.

But the thing that bothered me the most throughout this entire ordeal, was the fact that I could no longer feel the presence of The Illuminati in my life. I felt fully abandoned by them. I could not feel them in any way, shape, or form, even though it was clear my Initiation was still in progress, throughout it all.  I know, I know…they are always watching. But for me, it seemed they got into their space ships and decided to watch me from Saturn while they turned up the heat.  I thought they no longer cared about me, or how I was feeling. I felt they had pushed me down and left me for dead, even though it was my decision to quit smoking. I had several significant fires going in that same 6 months period of time, and I can honestly say it was (by far) the hardest part of my Initiation process, to date.

The whole time I was losing my shit, I reluctantly and RESENTFULLY moved towards the solution. I committed to exercise 5 days a week and for the most part, I followed through on that, even when I did not want to. Mostly, I did not want to. I was still livid that I even had to. The only reason I was able to show up at all, is because I knew showing up was the only way to get that person screaming at me from the back of my head, to shut the hell up. Besides, I immediately felt better knowing I was moving into a solution, even if I could not see any evidence of it.

At times I put all my heart into it and at others, I showed up halfheartedly. I showed up in the grubbiest fat clothes you can picture, but I showed up! Even when I gained an additional 7 more pounds, and I was in a state of despair as a result, I showed up.  Even when I was crying, I still showed up. I showed up to stride even if I had to take a nap beforehand, to do so.  I showed up when my legs were like painful balloons ready to pop. I showed up and strode through the freaking burning pain and the bloated loss of motion. I showed up with or without the music. With or without my enthusiasm.  And with or without any desire to do so. I hated almost every minute of it for 2 full months, possibly more, but I showed up. 

I freaking showed up!!

While I have yet to reach my goal, which is predicated on how I feel in my skin not how I look, I still feel 1000Xs better than I had before. I am starting to move more fluidly again, and the constant burning has ceased. I do not see “Consumption V” in the mirror anymore, and that alone brings a sign of relief, which has the potential to create hurricanes.



Without a doubt, this has been one of the most challenging battles of my life. This was on par with fighting your way back from an injury, after an accident for me.  Even though it does not yet show, I can feel HaPPy and Healthy V, being carved out inside of every corner of me.  I know it will not be very much longer, before the outside matches what is happening within. I can tell you right now though, my sense of accomplishment is over the stack right now! It is especially sweet, when you didn’t even want to do the thing, that you have kicked arse, taken names and DONE!!


OH!! And it turns out…this exercise stuff is GREAT at diminishing the smack my head likes to talk, and it doesn’t look so bad on my legs either! I’m starting to get excited about this renovated and ravishing V, I just know will emerge; eventually! The one who faced that freaking mountain, and strode all over it, like the Victoryas Princess-Goddess that she truly, and thoroughly  is!




The whole point of sharing this snippet, is to serve as a reminder for us all that we can face whatever it is, that stares us down. We can stare right back at it, face our fear, and conquer the fork out of whatever we must face.

That is a fact!

We are never given more than we can stand.

Please do NOT lose sight of that EVER, Beacons.


When you think you cannot do that thing, you don’t even want to do.

You can.

When you think you can go no farther, on a path you never wanted to take.

You will.

You can and you will.





Write of Passage~

Posted: April 2, 2019 in FYI



I am busy finishing up one of the two books I have scheduled for release this year. Much of what I have been writing lately, is earmarked for that project. Due to the subject matter, this next book should be of particular interest to our IAMFAM.      It’s a bit of an Initiate “TELL ALL”.        Hehehehe~


Posted: March 25, 2019 in Archetypes, Poetry, WORD!
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A sociopath down to her core, she always watches you

And pathetically mimic’s, almost everything you do.

You are her obsession -that which she will never be

Because you walk upright, and don’t slither in trees.

Try as she might, she will never stand as tall

She is just another predator, in the thick of it all.

Blinded by her own narcissism, she truly cannot see

She is nothing anyone aspires to, or ever wants to be.


(Metaphorical Archetypes from my Garden of Eden Collection)

Free Speech

Posted: March 21, 2019 in Free Speech, FYI, WORD!
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In doing a little research for this one, I ran into Propertarianism. It is a fascinating alternative to our current governmental system.  I am liking it so far, as it values merit just like Meritocracy does, yet it has it’s own distinct twist. 

I am just now wadding through it, but it might very well render the following line of thinking for me, obsolete.

So here goes nothing!



My admirable friend, David Rothschild tweeted:   

“FREE SPEECH does not include Hate Speech…hate will not be tolerated”


(Which  pretty much inspired this blog, so thank you, Sir!)

OK. I hear you.

I actually feel ya, D.

I feel for everyone, your voice represents.

I truly do!

PS: This is not directed at your personally.


However,  the law of the land, states differently.

I agree hate speech as defined, is a deplorable civil Tort.

Hate is also a nasty emotion that can lead to violence, if unchecked.

Agreed. Agreed. Agreed!

BUT, so does lying to the masses, and that’s perfectly legal!


It is perfectly legal to lie from any pulpit, including your T.V. It is up the public, to discern the truth for themselves.

It is called critical thinking, perhaps folks have heard of it?

Anyway, unfortunately, that would require thought and research, something most are categorically unwilling to do.

I do not want to see any aspect of our fabulous FREE SPEECH laws repealed.

Not even the right to lie*

More importantly, neither does SCOTUS.

In fact, they recently ruled Propaganda to be legal, by rolling back a previous unconstitutional ban on it.*


I believe that lies literally lie, at the foundation of almost all kinds of hate.

So silencing the words that give voice to it, does not change it’s existence.

Unfortunately, hate will always be with us, whether seen or heard. 

Only the ignorant believe they can remove hate, by banning the words that express it.

In fact, it can be argued that festering hate leads to more violence, than hate that has a voice, no?



When it comes to free speech, either it is ALL free…

or we as humans, are not.




For me, it is that simple.

Because a line is the sand, always shifts with the prevailing winds.


Beyond the Media, who have been doing it for decades, who exactly determines what is hate speech, anyway?

You, today?

Me, tomorrow?

What about Conservatives or Liberals?

Or the current Administrations incumbents?

Will they decide, each in their turn?

Because that means the definition would change with each new party at the helm.

Each new agenda stifling opposition and criticism, to their favor.

Oh wait, that is already happening. Isn’t it?

Maybe we should let “The Church” handle that one? They are our moral superiors, are they not?

(Tongue in cheek)


It seems to me, hate is rooted in fear and watered by jealousy and envy. How can we legislate that?

No, really. How?


Here’s the deal…

We will never remove the feelings, even if we attempt to legislate the way we can express them.

This is what makes shifting laws governing the limits of free speech, so dangerous.

But blaming violence and war on ‘fighting’ words, instead of someones inability to control themselves, is irrational. 

Are we really going to take the ‘Devil made me do it’ mentality into a New Age?


Let me put it this way:

                      I PREFER to know where intolerance, prejudice & ignorance resides.

                Can’t fix something, you don’t know is an issue.

Can’t avoid something that is well hidden.

I want to know what people are thinking, so we can talk about it.

But I realize, I am not a mass mentality thinker.

As someone old enough to be your Mum, I feel like everyone needs to go to their forking rooms, and think about “IT” for awhile!

Is this the way we really want to go?


Are we really pushing for a low IQ mass mentality, a hive mind.

Is that what Unity is?

Are we really going to bash everyone down, to comply with whatever that master-minds say we must think, or feel?

Because if that is where you kids are wanting to take humanity, I can’t go with you.

I just can’t

It will be the destruction of our civilization, and the death of our species will not be far behind.

Thank you Trophy Gen, (although it is NOT your fault) for your unmerited bullshit and faulty logic. Way to be “woke” enough, to lead the Sheep to slander.

In the end you will win nothing, as your ill-bred ideology will bring you socialism and with it a dictator or worse, the collapse of you society.

Whether you realize it or not, you are attempting to dummy down all of mankind and systematically eliminated the voices of reason, to your own peril.

There is no where to go from there.

Thankfully, due to my proximity to the exit, I wont be going with you.

I was REALLY hoping folks would figure out how to heal past this ancient crap & start creating a different vibe altogether, because you cannot legislate human emotion.

You just can’t.

This isn’t 1984 (Orwell’s) where we get to eliminate words that we are uncomfortable with, to suit Big Brother.

Or is it?


I know it happened on my watch, but I cannot pin-point to the exact moment when humans became such easily offended & spineless pussy’s.

But man it is unattractive.

And exceedingly dangerous, given the Trojan horses that are already within this bleeding heart, border-less country.

I feel like we’re all caught in high school hell, on groundhogs day. 

Something I would think plays straight into the hands of Communist Russia….hmmmmmmmmmm…..hahahahaha~

But Hey!

Good luck with silencing your enemies!

Because censorship will never make them stop hating you, in fact it will only embolden them.


I personally prefer to teach my descendants to be Lions, and to ignore the opinions of Sheep~



Links to Learn More:



*Although this might be changing for me.



There you are Beacons!


I wanted to get this on the record for you guys, for future reference.

This is my evidence, and why I think The Illuminati cares deeply those, who have been subject to the worst our species can dish out.  I think they are as mortified as I am, by mans inhumanity to man. I believe they have indirectly encouraged me to explore this disturbing topic more thoroughly and have emboldened me, to bring it forward.

I first realized that pedophilia and perversion were on their radar, back in Dec 2016, after a series of tweets I posted on the topic. I was closely following WikiLeaks and Pizzagate at the time. I was attempting to bring some awareness to my followers, most of which, chose to ignore me. Perhaps due to the controversy that was going on at the time concerning the validity of the information that was coming forward. No judgement, it was a painful time for a lot of us who were willing to gaze into the abyss.

I was convinced there was something to all of this and looked deeply enough to convince myself that there was, before moving on and taking a break from the agony of it’s nasty reality. As a Soul Mama at heart, I can hardly stand the mental images that come with a topic as hideous as this one. It is more than I can hardly stand. So I get it. Most folks do not want to hear about any of this. They would prefer to stay innocent and believe the best in people. I certainly would have preferred that myself. But knowledge does not let us sleep in the dark for long. And that which is hidden, does come to the surface; eventually.

This is something that we as a species MUST look at and eradicate. Straight up. There is no other way around any of this, we must go through it. We must look at what we have allowed to flourish, by our unwillingness to accept true and disturbing evil lives among us, and they are HUMAN!

*Below was my first nod from IAM regarding this issue.


In preparation leading up to iMark’s expose’ titled: INHUMANITY, I had made this post on twitter that IAM almost immediately (in Illuminati time), responded to.  Again, more evidence that I was on the right track choosing to bring this forward? It was to me. 

I had enlisted Christine Ingraham and Brad Adams to help accomplish the goal of bringing some awareness and education to this complicated and upsetting issue. They too felt their investigations were aided by random information that would come to them, in the most unlikely of ways.  Everyone was convince without a shadow of a doubt, that this needed to come out into the Light of day, and that we needed to chime in with the thousands of voices that were working in concert, to do this worldwide. 


We all could not ask for more obvious backing than this. This statement is clearly directed at the underbelly of humanity. The Illuminati did not stutter when they made these comments just a few days before our informal opening into the topic.  This is NOT an issue that will be brushed under the carpet for much longer. Even now, there are high profile cases coming out into the open, and there will be more. Many more. We will see household names accused, apprehended and held accountable. It is going to be very unsettling time for many. It will not be pleasant to find out our icons, be they political, musical or theatrical are disgusting predatory perverts. But we must face this, to move into a solution. Shining a little Light on this, is going to prevent it’s further growth -while drastically reducing how many are effected.


This is the single most compelling reason why war and violence, needs to become obsolete for me personally. It is at the root, of what ails our civilization. We simply cannot keep living like this, if we are to survive ourselves. The time has come to face the things that have been festering in the dark and bring them into the Light to be sanitized and healed.

I am calling for compassion, as we look deeply into what we have become, so that we can become something better, together~


*Thank you for your amazing support IAM!

It took me awhile to find the right folks to help me do this, because as you know, I am way too tender to look very deeply, myself. Unfortunately the gal I originally asked to participate, did not follow through as promised. Too busy playing children’s games, to be bothered to truly help kids, I guess? It reminded me once again, people will talk a good game, but often are not who, or what they say they are.  A valuable lesson revisited -that actually applies to the subject at hand. Anyway, I apologize for the delay. But apparently it was necessary.

I also wanted to say, I am tremendously grateful that you helped lead the team, to the right information for us to include! It was important to Brad and Nikki that they made themselves armchair experts, before sharing this knowledge with others. We are all very grateful for your signs and symbols!

Personally, I learned a lot through all this, and have far more compassion for those caught in the shadows now, than I did when we started.

We truly hope we have done this subject justice, and that justice will fall on those who have eluded her thus far, without mercy~


Call me V~

Posted: March 14, 2019 in FYI

Regardless of what my ‘handles’ say.

Apparently iVy Taroc is preferable to the search engines!



Thank you!!


Posted: March 11, 2019 in FYI, Hell, Milestone
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imagesI have been blogging now for four whole years -as of yesterday.


I have been writing all my life, most of which is lost in antiquity. 


I have been writing in one place now, for four full years!

FOUR freaking YEARS!!


That is kind of a big deal in my world. Or at least it should be.

Today I am all kinds of mercury-retrograde meh.


It IS cool to watch my cadence improve, though.

I do feel like I finally started to step into myself, on these pages.


Well, I did feel that way. For a minute.

Mostly thanks to Mint & >B<


Unfortunately though, I feel like I have lost my way, and I am not certain I am on path anymore.

I am trying to write my way through it, but my motivation is just gone. 

Hades pretty much kicked my arse.

And I pretty much bled out.



I finally freaking crawled out of the abyss, only to discover this:

I’m caught in a loop circling some La-la-land of Make-Believe, off the coast of Misfit Island.

Holy Hell!

I must be a loon!?


But Hey…HaPpy Anniversary V~


God Damn it!!

Posted: March 5, 2019 in Archetypes, Metaphor
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God Damn it!!





A voice from behind

That’s definitely not me.

I hear you calling

from somewhere

I can’t see.

Inside I know

I’m not my own boss.

We rule this roost

But at a shared cost.

It’s love and unlucky

Twisted in two

One on one, we are fated

In all that we do.

The tension is such

That at the end of all time.

Mutual release explodes

Into a birth of some kind~


One resurrects

What another slays.

Neither life nor death

Permanently stays.

A pendulum of contrasts

That constantly sways

A magical union

In infinite play~

(Metaphorical Archetypes from my Garden of Eden Collection)


Posted: March 5, 2019 in Archetypes, Metaphor, Uncategorized
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Hated for not bringing the meat, so to speak

His offerings weren’t sanctioned by blood

A farmer of violence and war in the world

A precursor to the ‘flood’.


He has everything hidden deep within

But his actions spoke out loud

His sin was his envious ego

He was far too jealous, and proud.


He is marked for all time, they say

To remind those of us, who can see

The coiled still lies latent in men

Regardless how far from the tree.


But before we cast this Cain into Hell

There is something more in this story, to rock

For this is the man, it would seem

That sired a boy named, Enoch!



The image provided above is by

The Apple

Posted: March 4, 2019 in Archetypes, Metaphor
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An apple doesn’t fall too far from the tree

Wether it’s a bully or human puss-see

A collector of truths, as dumb as the last

We’re forbidden fruit -that’s ahead of your class.

A million bits of data that won’t  harmonize

Hypocrisy is ugly, in no matter what size.

The bite’s not too deep

If at the core, it’s true

This ‘poisoned pen’, wants a re-write on you~


(Metaphorical Archetypes from my Garden of Eden Collection) 



Posted: March 4, 2019 in Archetypes, Metaphor
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We know who you are,

and we know what you’ve done,

Soon the others will too.

But you’re too dense to slither away

Before exposure comes to you.


You’re role playing a game you can’t win

No bots can cultivate fame

You have failed to gauge our skill set dear

We too can release social pain.


Consider this a merciful warning,

The court of public opinion, is real

Soon you will become constricted

In a way, even evil can feel~


(Metaphorical Archetypes from my Garden of Eden Collection)


Posted: March 3, 2019 in Archetypes, Metaphor
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She’s not just his helpmate

She’s a goddess, not girl

Uncompliant and moody

Eternal desire; unfurled.


She is always on top

Even laying beneath him

She’ll wear his pants

But NEVER ever, his sin.



This is the one,

That makes Adam a man.

The one he longs for, yet cannot stand~



Posted: March 2, 2019 in Archetypes, Metaphor, Random
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(Metaphorical Archetypes from The Garden of Eden Collection)


Posted: March 1, 2019 in Archetypes, Metaphor, Poetry
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She is irresistible to those, who do not know

Her jewels are poisoned from something below

One sip of her cup and she will digress

Taking the best of us down and up under her mess

She is not nakedly truthful, her intents are veiled

She is the ship in the distance that has already sailed

A beauty to behold, and more charming than most

All of  her promises, a unholy ghost~


(Metaphorical Archetypes from my Garden of Eden Collection)


I’ve been waxing poetic of late, and will begin releasing my Metaphorical Archetypes: The Garden of Eden Collection, starting this evening.

My inspiration comes from a variety of people, including other Initiates.

I often tell those closest to me, if you don’t want some aspect of yourself to end up in my writing, run now! Lol

Archetypes are unavoidable teachers along our journey to the center of ourselves. The choice to erase or embrace them each in their season, is as inescapable as the path itself. Each in their turn, a better version of ourselves, revealed.  

I have posted a disclaimer regarding my work, and it is especially relevant when it comes to my prose.

Fair warning, I am a passive aggressive AF poet! “Sometimes”. It may not seem like it, but I actually love & am quite grateful, for the contrast in my life. My worldview is vastly more colorful, as a result!



Posted: March 1, 2019 in Depression, FYI




First off…THANK YOU for caring about me so much! It is beyond humbling and not taken for granted on my end.

I need you guys to know this to prevent rumors based on my own admissions. Every time I have gone through depression, it has been a result of aka a by-product of, a physical affliction or trauma.

Please note regarding my PTSD: I moved past the depression stage of that particular challenge, 3 decades ago plus.


Depression is NOT a chronic condition for me. It is circumstantial & quite temporary.

Please be advised, by the time I release one of my wordy creations, the moments I am speaking of, has already past.

So there is no need to worry, my beautiful and thoughtful Beacons.

While I appreciate your amazing outpouring of love and concern behind the scenes more than you know, it is no longer necessary once I have gone to print, as the storm has already passed.

So if you could please send your Love & Light on the regular, that would be absolutely delicious, and appreciated beyond measure!


And thank you for being so gracious to me, as I grow~


Posted: March 1, 2019 in FYI, Misc.
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There you are Beacons!


I continue to be MIA, as I get things done behind the scenes that have deadlines attached to them. This is in effect well into Spring 2019.  I appreciate your continued patience more than you know!

If you absolutely need to get a hold of me, please do so HERE 

Finally got back into one of my FB accounts last night. I am not one to use that particular system often, and it is easy for me to forget it is there. My primary Social Media hang out is Twitter @VG00DRICH

  I am having formatting issues here on my blog. I tried something that didn’t work out. Just so you know, I throw my blog into PRIVATE when I am working on something, because  I do not have the package that allows for the Maintenance Mode plugin. So if things seems scrammbly to you now, they are!

Our iMARK FB page & group are fully operational and you can continue to contact the station in DMs there. Our Twitter DMs are not available at this time. Using our email is always the quickest route overall. That link is provided above.

iMARK is working on a highly upsetting, but informative expose’ into Pedophilia and Sex Trafficking. The researching part is waaaay slow to go, as one can only take so much of it, at a time. My hat is off to Brad and Nikki Cee for handing the most disturbing content. I absolutely could not do this thing, without them.  I wanted to bring this forward early on, but unfortunately a former volunteer did not follow through with the help I needed to get this going.  I have no problem owning I cannot do this by myslef, so I apologize for the delay IAM! Thankfully, the right people with far more professionalized abilities to search deep and wide, have helped us all get information I have never seen in print before. We hope to educate, even though it is material we ALL wish did not exist.

Personally I am in the process of completing two more books. I am running behind schedule, due to the lack of reliable service and devices in my home. Some of this will be resolved in the next week, or so says Sprint.  I will be back at it, as soon as possible. I’m really excited to bring the next book in particular to market. I think you guys will find it an interesting read! 

I have been waxing poetic of late, and will begin releasing my Metaphorical Garden of Eden Collection next week! My inspiration comes from other Initiates. Please be advised, each poem has aspects of several folks that have inspired me, in one way or another. I have posted a disclaimer regarding my work and it certainly is especially relevant when it comes to my prose.

I know waiting on IAM for further inspiration, or guidance regarding the New World Order, can be extremely frustrating. Many of us (especially the more seasoned Initiates) are anxious to get the show on the road. But haste is not something The Illuminati is about. This is a looooong game that must be well thought out before execution.  This is why patience is a highly valued virtue around here. 

In the mean time…

There is much for us to do,  as we prepare ourselves to participate at various  levels of IAMs Public Outreach. Continue to walk the path you are on, and perfect your craft as you go. Study and research not just The Illuminati messages and books, but any other manner of knowledge that will benefit you with your role in the Universal Design. Use the time available to you beyond your day job, to learn as much as you can about this outreach and pass that information on to others. As stated in ILLUMINATIAM, the desire of the Illuminati is that ALL people, in ALL places are given a chance to Follow the Light before the storms hit. As Initiates, I believe it is our responsibility to help facilitate that. We are the ones who have been trusted to be the heralds of Light, in a world that will go dim, before it gets brighter.

Please deeply consider the enormity of this rarefied high calling.


Alright, that is all I know for now! Please have a WONDERful weekend Beacons!


About Badges~

Posted: February 27, 2019 in Badges, FYI
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There you are Beacon’s!

Let’s refresh our knowledge base on Badges together, before the MP Community reopens.

Here is our example: “Verification” is a Permanent BADGE.

If you are unfamiliar with the details governing this particular distinction , they can be found posted here, under the title: VERIFICATIONverify

The following is straight from the Members Portal and I thought it important enough to archive the info here, as well. There seems to be a lot of misunderstanding and confusion regarding ‘Badges’ and I am hoping to help eliminate some of that.

Since new Badges are likely to appear when the Community reopens later this year, I want all Initiates to be grounded in what they represent, so those who have earned them, can be rightfully respected, for having done so.

Please guys, this must be stated in the strictest terms I can conjure…

You many not like the person who merits a given Badge, however you must respect The Illuminati’s choice to honor their status and/or accomplishments. NEVER forget, it is THE ILLUMINATI themselves who has given these badges out, not our fellow Initiates.

If you have no respect for the decisions of The Illuminati, and are bad-mouthing their choices, you are not only impeding your own advancement here, you are likely following the wrong path altogether.

SO, please deeply consider this as we move forward, Initiates.




Remember guys, Badges are an honor and have been earned!



If you have any additional questions, please ask them below.





To introduce, recruit, enlist, convert and baptize are synonyms.


There is no question in my mind, this path is not for everyone.

One needs to be made of the kind of stuff that is not found in every man, or women. If this were the easy road, it would have been travel by the masses and trampled to death, long ago. There would be nothing remarkable about this journey, and likely secret societies would not even exist, as a result.

However, this IS the path less traveled. The journey rarely taken, and even more rarely understood, as a never ending journey.

Although there are milestones.

  This is not for the heartless, those that quit, or those who have no character or intestinal fortitude. It takes guts, grit and integrity, to move through the Initiation process created by The Illuminati. As stated in Is the Illuminati Good or Evil, “Not all leaders are invited to join our membership. Many lack the intelligence and integrity that we require…” This should give us all insight, into what The Illuminati reveres. I cannot recommend reading that one again, if you haven’t recently.

I wanted to drive a very important point home that may have been lost in my other writings about Initiation, from my perspective. While the path is not for all, all who travel it will be perfected in ways, distinctive to them alone. This path appears to be custom tailored. Each initiation is one of a kind, like those who are invited to participate. 

Part of this seems to be about our unique roles in the Universal Design. In Illuminatiam, The First Testament of the Illuminati, it states that Ranking Membership comes with an OFFICIAL TITLE, reinforcing in my mind, those who are successful in passing through the Initiation process,  indeed have “roles” in this organization that are in alignment with the Universal Design.

The process by which a person’s character is tested, would be similar for all, but preparation for our roles, which I believe is an element of this whole production, is not. In that way, no two people will experience the exact same thing, as they move through this ancient establishment. Although the blueprint seems to have the same basic pattern; birth, death and personal resurrection, the rest of it is highly customized. So, we all get tested in the same ways on one hand, and the custom stuff comes from the other.

I believe my initiation which I have entered into of my own Free Will, is testing me to see if I practice what I preach, because I am an emerging Evangelight. They are probably looking to see if I actually take my own advice, on top of everything else they are looking for. What I am being groomed for, is different than what you are being prepared for. All of this is time tested and seems to be connected with our individual roles in the Universal Design.

But your path will be very different than mine. And your trials, geared towards a differing outcome; altogether. Our characters and crafts are refined, customized,  and cultivated, through a system that EVERY other Illuminati member has passed through, before us. Si in that way we are in good company.

Given we have answered the call to be Shepherds of our Species during stormy weather, I believe in order to be selected to do so, we must be able to stand the storms ourselves, to lead others through them. We must be able to be trusted under fire, for others to trust us in battle. We must be creatures of character, to be leaders worth following as we guide our species to a higher place in our evolutionary journey. Each role, no less important than the next. Each string weaving the very fabric of our existence, with the utmost perfection, once seen from the top of the pyramid.

I have to tell you guys though, having someone to share all of this with, who is going through it themselves, is incredibly helpful to me. I would be completely lost without my IAMfam here, because my real-time peeps, just don’t get it. It is almost impossible to explain any of this, to those who have never experienced it for themselves, so I stopped even trying. My IAMfam are my life line and the few that I share with, are as committed as I am to getting through the refinement fires. It is fascinating to hear about the ways in which they believe IAM is leading them as individuals, in accordance with their emerging roles. I marvel at the indirect ways in which the Illuminati is able to make their presence known, without any direct contact. I have learned there are reasons for everything, even NOT getting the “likes”.

I cannot encourage you all enough, to develop a close bond with at least one other initiate. You are going to need each other to bounce things off of, once your initiations begins in earnest. Especially if you are flying blind, like I was. Part of the reason for me sharing my experiences with everybody, is to help demystify a very mysterious process. It goes without saying, I am no expert in any of this. I was so completely clueless when I started, and somewhat clueless, even now. I just want to assist others like myself in their orientation, to the best of my ability. 

Because honestly, this shit is hard enough, without being totally ignorant, like I once was~



Please note: This is what I have come to understand by what I have experienced personally and have seen in others around me. I am by no means speaking on the Illuminati’s behalf here, I am speaking ABOUT my relationship to them, from my own point of view. Surely theirs is VERY different than mine!!


I am well aware many of you have been involved in ‘loyal water buffalo lodges’ before, and are in no need of my perspective. I am speaking to a specific audience, who I hope will benefit from what I am saying.

If you tassel-hat guys (wink) have anything to add, I would LOVE to hear from you!

Please add your comments below, Beacons.



How in the world I recently circled back on myself, is beyond me. However I do blame the Illuminati, for blowing on the embers of my soul.  Their unseen winds, igniting a fire within that is burning much more fiercely, than it existed in its original state. I cannot possibly express my gratitude for this process, and the walk I have taken through the underworld, to reach deeper into the mysteries of myself. I can see now, I have been ceaselessly guided by the Light of those, who are ALWAYS watching out for us.

Having returned from hell, far too many times to count, I have finally arrived back onto the path that has been designed especially for me. And the cool thing is guys, you all have one of your own unique, design. It has been engineered especially for you too!

This is what I have learned about my role in this theater, we call life…

I embody the 3rd definition of Evangelism. And the 6th definition of Evangelist! (air quotes)
#3: missionary zeal, purpose, or activity~
#6: a person marked by evangelical enthusiasm for or support of any cause~

Or perhaps it’s more accurate to state that this energy embodies me!

Allow me to be more specific, since evangelism came out of the Protestant Movement, and I since have consciously rejected the Gods of Men…let’s just say, the word needed some tweaking to evolve it. So…I have come up with my own definition, that I feel is more precise, for me personally. It is more in alignment with who I truly am, by design. I know there are others out there like me, so it’s to them that I humbly dedicate & submit this new term, for public use.

I AM an #EvangeLight!!


That’s it.

And I’m practicing for the day that my voice will have more reach. Because I know folks are hurting & lost in spiritual confusion, at a time in our history, where a more rational and logical vision, is desperately needed in the mix.

Too many of us have defaulted to escapism, sorcery &  salacious animalistic instincts, to deny, distract or avoid the distress of a world in painful transition. Even to the casual observer, not yet fully awake -we as a species seem to be experiencing a collective form of insanity.

Growing numbers of us, are beginning to realize, we’ve  been surrounded by lies. We’ e been dummied down & our potentials enslaved.  We can feel it, even if we cannot give words to it.

But deep down, in all this crazy & chaos, there IS something more. We know something is out there, or at least around here somewhere!  We can sense that it’s bigger than the both of us. And it surely seems to have ALL of us, surrounded!

I have been called to help activate the fires within those, who are destined to rise from the ashes of a dying old world order. Bottom line human family, religion as we have known it, will perish. And out of the embers, the glowing truth will remain. Between here and there, it will get hot & chaotic, as we collectively face the hell of our own creation, first. It ain’t gonna be pretty, so we need to hold hands here, as we struggle through our collective process. The Phoenix will surely rise, of that, there can be no sustainable doubt. The growing pains WILL be worth it. They will labor, to bring forth new life.

There is much to do, and a long way to go, before the Light reaches it’s apex. Religion will not go quietly. In-spite of its control mechanism & eventual corruption, it was a necessary part of our evolutionary design.  And we need to respect the role it has played In our development. Our spiritual infancy & teenage years were fashioned by religions repressive reach. However, it ALL works together in the long haul. We are ever expanding creatures, despite how it looks from our limited points of view. In the grand scheme of things, we got this. We are not designed to remain stagnant, nor have we truly ever been. Regardless of what traditionalists will tell us.

I want to help you guys see things from a broader perspective, and in doing so much of your personal spirit led journey, might come into clearer focus. Perhaps in a way, you might not see coming! Although it has been there, unchanged all along. The Alpha & the Omega, that Grand Architect of All. All we have to do, is agree upon a name. Plus some common denominators. Because it has many of each. It will become crystal clear going forward, why we call this particular energetic & creative divine mind, the Light. And my purpose, is to help folks find & follow it.

If you’re reading this, and have not followed me as of yet, I invite you to join my emerging inner evangeLight, as she she gears up, to go global.

The Age of enLightenment is dawning. It’s time we build a new spiritual foundation in which we may grow spiritually towards the Light together, individually and as one. Our common denominator is the Light. We must make this simple truth, our earthquake proof foundation. There is strength in numbers -magnified power, where 2 or more are gathered.

Our spiritual unification is not only our destiny, it is our birthright! It is time we inherit the love, harmony, joy, innovation, creativity, abundance and the magnificent order, that goes along with it.

Thank you for your precious time guys!! Have a wonderful week!



I was so distracted by the shadows that constantly surround me, I had completely lost sight of, the transformational power of the Light within!

I went straight to emotional hell as a result.

I have actually been camped out there for quite some time, I am embarrassed to report. But it was a necessary journey for me. One that reminded me just how incredibly powerful our thought life really is! Apparently, I needed the reminder. I mean, talk about flying blind! I was circling my own bullshit, trapped in the mire of my own negative thought patterns. I can now say with complete confidence, that depression comes from within! I was allowing my stinkin-thinkin, to construct a mental prison around me, because I was focusing on the things that I found disturbing, instead of the delicious & deLightful!

The descent into darkness is almost imperceptible at first. It starts with unchecked thoughts like: I am not good enough. I am too old, I am hated, I am not a good leader, etc etc etc. Allowing any one of these thoughts to exist without rejection, provides the building blocks of our own demise. Theses destructive words and expressions are what imprison us. And the truly ironic thing about it, is they are LIES! I can’t even believe I allowed this to happen again, since I truly know better. But I am truly grateful for the painful reminder, about how incredibly creative or destructive, our minds really are. 

I urgently & emphatically implore you, to guard your thoughts!

They are the cornerstones of your immediate and future reality. They will shape your experience in ways you may not like. Or draw things to you, that you love. They are responsible for literally everything that occurs in matter and if we do not control them, they WILL construct a world, that controls us. I have learned, the most effective way out of a adverse thought pattern, is to replace it with preferable messages, from the opposite extreme. We must reprogram ourselves.

Now this is where it gets tricky, because it is easier said than done. The hardest part is actually realizing what we are currently saying to ourselves. That awareness is critical step one, towards the solution that will set us free. When we are caught in darker thought patterns, it is very difficult to record something positive over the top of them. Largely because we have begun to believe the negative and the new thoughts feel like categorical lies.

Well who cares!! LIES got us into the ditch, in the first place! So lie to yourself!! Tell yourself the exact opposite of what you are currently streaming in the background! Do this every time a self defeating thought floats by. Do it after every comment thought or spoken to you, that suggests you are anything less that a powerful creative Light with great value and purpose on this planet.

Again, it doesn’t matter if you believe it right now! Eventually you will!

Just override any negativity with positive reinforcement, about how truly fabulous you are! Find things you love about yourself, things you are thankful & grateful for, and repeat those things. Throw in some epic lies, regarding the things you want to become in there too, for good measure. Do this over and over and over again!  Do it forever! Your life will start changing immediately within and soon your outer world, will become solid a reflection, of the things going on inside you.

Do this without ceasing, because I just learned the hard way, without true vigilance, the incredible programming power of the world around us, will take over for us, if we turn our heads away for too long.

I invite you to start reprogramming yourself right now. Do not delay. You can begin the moment you have finished reading/listening to this and see the results far quicker than you ever imagined.

So go on now…get out of here! Go find a place to sit alone for awhile and get your head back in the game. The sooner you do, the sooner the solutions will come to saturate your being with the healing & restorative powers of an enlightened mind.

This alone, will reshaped your reality.