Fear in Flight~

I cannot stand the longing.

I must make it go away. 
It’s hard for me to believe that he, could like me in that way.

I surely have my reasons. 
I am totally unprepared.
And if I wasn’t on my knees, I would be running scared. 

I cannot stomach the longing.
It’s a pain I cannot stand.
I must pull my aching heart away, I put into his hand. 

I surely have my reasons,  
I fear I’ll be betrayed
I want to love him madly, but I am simply too afraid. 

I know I’ll always wonder.
What could or should have been. 
But I know I’ll never want a man, like I have wanted him~