Fear of Failure~

FEAR NOT, the Illuminati continually reminds.

I would like to remind you all that fear does not have to be crippling, it can be creative~

the-scream

(The Scream by Edvard Munch 1893)

But I am caught in the grips of it, trying to complete my latest book.

I have been working on it for 2 years now, and have read it many times during the editing process. Each time I get close to publication, I run through it again. I remove, edit or add elements, all in an effort to stall the inevitable. I second guess, over-analyze and diminish the work I was once actually quite proud of.

Like the image above that has forever captured a moment in time, I am frozen with fear. I have been halted, and haunted by my own insecurities.

So much so, I willfully missed my own deadline while blaming outside influences for doing so. I am ashamed of being this scared. It is not a feeling I am used to or comfortable with.

I am afraid my efforts will be a colossal failure, as if the simple act of actually writing and publishing a book alone, could ever be.

I am afraid it will be ridiculed, and I will be openly mocked. I am afraid it will not sell. I am afraid I left too many commas in it. I am afraid that “real” authors will see me as nothing more than a middle-school wordsmith. I am afraid I will have to defend it to the masses, and minimize it to my Mom. I am afraid it just, plain, sux.

I am so freaking afraid!!

But I will do this thing, anyway!  I will not allow fear to cripple my creation. I will see this project to completion. I will use my fear as fuel to finish it with finesse, and let the reader have the final word, damn it!

(P R I M A L  S C R E A M)

 

“Every great work, every great accomplishment, has been brought into manifestation through holding to the vision, and often just before the big achievement, comes apparent failure and discouragement  -Florence Scovel Shinn

 

UGH!

 A timely message from IAM this AM, reminds me that what I am experiencing is par for the course. Crazy given I wrote this a few days ago.

Synchronicity

Unfortunately, I am at the failure and discouragement part of that quote, in more ways than with just this book.

But I’ll push through.

The remedy is in the reminder V: HOLD the VISION!!

“Everything you’ve ever wanted is sitting on the other side of fear” -George Addair

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5 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. Raza Zaidi
    Jul 08, 2019 @ 05:28:07

    Very true mam V.. Really by reading your this post my mond totally changed and feeling ENLIGHTENMENT with in my brain and heart.
    You are true guaidance towards LIGHT.

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  2. Raza Zaidi
    Jul 08, 2019 @ 05:29:43

    By reading your articles my innerself is so micj shining. And really all doubts and other foolish things vanished and true LIGHT comes in minds.

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  3. Lady A
    Jul 08, 2019 @ 06:19:18

    I think u go for it and wait for the results. Rather than keeping it, u try and see the out come

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    • V~
      Jul 08, 2019 @ 07:07:49

      I think you might have missed the point of the post? Thanks for chiming in though. Rest assured, the book will get published! Lol~

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  4. cheshire
    Jul 10, 2019 @ 11:14:00

    Failure is my biggest and only real fear. We shouldn’t be afraid V, both of us are very capable individuals. Can’t wait to read the book❤

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